After not being in touch with my mother for a good while, I telephoned her last week to thank her for all the times she had looked after me with regard to my heart condition, the operations, the appointments, care at home etc. as I was going to the hospital that day for a heart appointment. She wasn't home so I left a message. She replied about 24 hours ago and left me a message on my mobile. I phoned because my sister tells me how bad my mother is and how ill she has been and so I feel guilty then. And I do appreciate the good things which she did for me as a child, so I wanted to tell her before anything happens to her. I thought it important.
I rang her back at around nineish tonight (Monday) but as she was watching Safe House she hardly spoke. But what little she did say was her being really nasty about my dad. She knows I am in contact with him now and she has always had the monopoly over mine and his relationship while she was married to him until 12 years ago when she divorced him but she still managed to get a dig in about him. He has nothing but good to say about her. I haven't spoken to her for months, when she told me I was dead to her, I walked away.
She is poorly, has really bad circulation, purple legs which burn up on the inside. I know she is in pain but there is no need to be vindictive. She has been like this most of my life. She is an alcoholic and has smoked for 63 years. I want to stay in touch as I have to live with myself when she dies and I don't want to feel like I let her down or myself by there being bad blood between us at the end.
My question is, how do I rise above her nastiness and keep the peace when in the past she has made me so upset by her vile words and I walk away? She wished my daughter to be nasty to me and to fall out with me. Her words cut like a knife.
I am currently rising above what my son says to me when he goes off on one, my siblings get in touch when they want something so no real support there, my dad has dementia so I have to support him and no friends yet to speak of as in a new area. It's a good job I have my doggie to keep me from going mad. And of course, you all keep me from being on my own, or feeling it, anyway.
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