SIL will be 40 in March and DD and he have arranged a big party for "their" generation on Sat night followed by a family lunch on the Sunday. I was asked if we could have the boys (21 mths and 3 mths) on Saturday afternoon and night and then drive them to DD and SIL (1 1/2 hrs) on Sunday when we go for lunch. At first I said Yes, under the impression we would have one boy and the other GPs the other, but no, it was both.
As DH has poor health and is due to have a relatively minor op on the Wednesday before I said I wasn't sure about having them both as I couldn't be sure DH would be able to help much if e.g. both needed attention in the night.I felt awful about it as the other GPs who are older than us, but both incredibly energetic and fit, are quite happy to do it (athough like me, dreading the responsibility of the drive!!).That is not to say we would not like to have them both any other time, but I just couldn't face a possibly sleepless night followed by 2x 75 mile drives the next day (DH isn't driving at present) As it has turned out DH is in hospital with a heart infection and for all I know may be transferred to London next week so everything is up in the air. But I still feel a failure!! I KNOW I looked after our own 2 then 3 singlehanded lots of the time, I love looking after my grandsons, but I was younger then and GC are much more responsibility than your own! Am I just frustrated because I am not Supergran? Or am I just worrying aobut nothing?
