You sound absolutely shattered at times in your posts gillybob and no wonder with all you have to fit into each day, with your family and work.
You sound as if you badly need a break from all the demands on your time.
Is there any way you could get away for a little holiday, perhaps in September when the children are back at school?
I know you and your husband have your own business, but could you have maybe a short break in say a B and B down here in the south where the weather is better?
I know I am stating what you already know, but you must look after your mental health. I remember you once said how you sometimes walk on the beach and just cry. That is so sad.
Nervous about grandchild's birth - it freaks me out
Retired husband is driving me crazy - not depressed, just lazy
Beloved dog put to sleep - dealing with pet loss