You don’t have to forgive them, I haven’t forgiven my deceased MIL or my DH, what I have done is accepted that she was a troubled bitter old woman and he was a product of his environment. I did the burn letter thing and that helped and as time passed it got easier. For me accepting I couldn’t change the past was crucial but I was and am determined that she will never steal another happy memory or experience from me (even from beyond the grave).
For me, realising that my anger was a healthy form of emotion that I don’t have to repress to keep the peace any more was hugely helpful - when I gave myself permission to be angry it seemed not to sit with me for as long. I did see a counsellor and have done some CBT over the years all of which help stop me in my tracks and think through the emotion to reboot my brain, might that be helpful?
With DH, his commitment to making sure our own DC aren’t subjected to or experiencing the same nonsense the rest of his family seem to thrive on (manipulation, silent treatment, drama etc etc) and his willingness to look at his own reactions has helped massively and he’s a different man since she’s died. I do still sometimes resent all the times he placated his mum to the detriment of our family, but that’s when I use my breathing and reboot tricks so that I don’t perpetuate my negative thoughts.
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