I now try to sleep through such things. I used to have to check arrivals on ceefax but now of course, the pooter does it for me. My son works on train tracks at night sometimes [not as much now as he's more office based] but, for a long time I couldn't sleep when he was working. Then when he was living in his own home I couldn't relax not knowing if he'd arrived home safely. When he was still here he hadn't arrived back before I left for work one day, so I had to leave work and drive home to see if his car was on the drive. Any excitement I have about holidays for myself is tempered by the fact that I have to fly there. I don't mind flying back, because that's something I HAVE to do.