All the time and today I had another reminder when a friend rang and told me a friend of hers died yesterday.
I only met him and his wife twice but my friend talked about them regularly, they were in another “compartment” of their lives.
We talked about our own husbands and mutual friends ,all now gone.
I have been depressed all day.
It is now 21 years since I had BC, I asked the oncologist to be honest with me and he dismissed my questions with a laugh, saying, you won’t see 80.
That must have seemed so far distant as to stop me even thinking about it.
I have passed that by 3 and a half years, it still plays on my mind.
So yes, I do wonder how long I have left, some days, like today, more than others.