I have recognised recently that I seem to be extra sensitised to grief, in a way I haven't been for some time. It is now over nine years since my daughter died in a car crash. There was a lot of literature that helped me in the early days and this included advice for the first couple of years, including reaching an apparent point of resolution.
I certainly identified with the idea of stages of grief and would be the first to say that I have been able to build positively and I have found new and unexpected happiness in life. And I would also say - as seems to be echoed time and again, that it takes time, but we can move on from the terrible pain of early loss and manage life well ...
But I also know that for me the tenth anniversary of everything seems very significant and brings new challenges. I have recently found a book online about dealing with longer term loss after the death of a child which is proving to be a helpful read and reassures me that this extra sensitivity in me is another stage of adjustment.
Has anyone else here found the tenth round of anniversaries more difficult and if so, what has helped you?
What makes it difficult for me is that I feel the pain of 'so much' time passed and I feel that my own children have now moved on in their lives and do not carry grief as I do. I think this is natural and I am not critical of them,/I just feel more alone in my grief and now uncertain of when to speak and when to be silent about the DD I lost for fear of upsetting them. I also think wider family members do not forget, but do not say anything about her any more, perhaps for the same reasons.
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