I’m on the fence. I think estrangement or no contact has always been there, my mother did not speak to her father. (He ran off and left my mother for another woman when I was a baby, then expected to waltz back into my life when he realised he couldn’t have children with his new woman. My mother encouraged me to have a relationship with him, but even as a seven year old I saw right through him.
I’ve had on and off estrangement with my mother, she was a hard woman, not kind to the girls in my family, but treated my brother like more of husband than her own. (Other family members haves backed this particular point up as my godmother tried to adopt me to get me out of what she viewed as an unhealthy situation)
I always help my mother and have disrupted my own life to provide care for her for months sometimes years, but no contact would be better if I knew someone else would take over caring for her. It’s extremely painful, I wish she was kind, especially as my own mother in law is a very unpleasant and manipulative woman.
I’ve been recently going to counselling as I realised I have been a difficult presence for my own DILS ( couseller said learned behaviours?) so I don’t become the next woman in my family who relatives desire to go no contact with. It’s tough though, realising I have taken on unpleasant elements of these two women. I’m a work in progress, one step forward one step back.