Our son and DIL have a beautiful little girl, now at nursery. We live 45 mins driving distance from them and dil’s mum and sister live in their area. Our DIL is very close to her mum and sister but initially we were reasonably regular visitors to their home and they to ours including frequent overnight babysitting at their home, a lovely relationship.
However there was a distinct cooling off from them at the beginning of last year, our DIL was less than welcoming if we went over to visit, having arranged beforehand, and it was clear that we were not to stay long - 2 hours max.
Unfortunately in May of last year I became ill with mental health difficulties (something I have experienced frequently over many years). I withdrew from everyone and found it especially painful to even talk about my son and his family as I was convinced they did not want contact with me because I was a failure. During this time of illness, which lasted approx 5 months, my husband visited DIL and granddaughter on his own but left after only half an hour as he also felt strongly unwanted. We saw them twice at their family gatherings but I struggled to communicate and was very tearful after each occasion.
Sorry for the long post but the background is important to the situation at present.
By November after extensive counselling, new medication and a home support team (which meant I didn’t have to be admitted to hospital) I started to ‘come back’ to the world. We had bought a special advent calendar, as usual, for our granddaughter and asked DIL if we could take it over to her. The answer was a definite ‘no, I am busy’. I met my son to pass on the gift and he told me that DIL was not prepared to go back to the relationship we had had before my illness, she did not care if I had been ill, she felt we had ignored her and he said that it would take ‘baby steps’ to build her trust and involvement again with us.
My son had explained that my period of illness was not unusual, he was accustomed to this throughout his childhood but she wasn’t interested.
Although terribly hurt we agreed to take ‘baby steps’.
This has meant that we have only seen our granddaughter on four occasions since Boxing Day, always with son and DIL.
Granddaughter is looked after two days a week by her maternal grandmother and they regularly have Sunday dinner with her as well as spending two or more days a week with dil’s sister.
We feel that we no longer know our granddaughter, she has no connection to us and I feel that it is unfair that my husband is losing out because I was ill.
I am not looking for a solution as I know that we just have to accept any contact on their terms, however I do feel that we are completely unwanted by both our son and DIL and everything we had dreamed of when becoming grandparents has vanished.
Good Morning Thursday 25th April 2024