You have all been so caring and kind to me , I am trying to get myself together but the inquest just two days after her birthday, difficult to explain . I was thinking of her birthdays when she was young, one year ,think she was eight, she announced over tea - I have invited the whole class because i didn't want to leave anyone out. Gulp 28 eight year olds, I said we haven't 28 chairs, the dining table seats six and you can't go on the lawn it's cold , she just said - I know but we can all sit on the floor , be nicer than being left out , so they did , in the living room and dining room.
her elder daughter told me yesterday she doesn't like the bridge , first time she has spoken of that night .
Thank you all so much, I needed you today, felt so fearful about the inquest and had little sleep last night x