I will try to make this brief ( if 50+ years can be condensed haha )
I was adopted at 6 weeks old, my mum and dad were the most perfect, precious, loving mum and dad there could ever be. They were open and honest with me about being adopted from the start.
Over my 50+ years, I have needed to visit numerous counselling sessions and phycotherpy, the reason being I wanted to know why I have so very much hurt and fear of rejection when my mum and dad swarmed me in love, why would I be consumed with a deep rooted anger, hurt, sorrow, grief ?
The time spent with the 'professionals' didn't help me whatsoever, no disrespect to them at all, but I'm just saying that my 'scar' was so very deep that it couldn't be healed.
I have written a few books consisting of over 60,000 words, with the 'bones' of the story being about adoption...
So,my question is, goes anyone else feel like I do?
Mingeled in amongst the feelings of rejection, hurt etc etc is a terrible sense of guilt too, ( as if the rejection feeling wasn't bad enough !) A sense of guilt because my mum and dad were perfect in every single way possible and why on earth should I allow these feelings to invade OUR perfect family life, and so guilt lurks.
Just wondered if anyone feels this way...
Enjoy your day everyone ( despite the gloomy clouds and rain running down the windows !!!! Haha )
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