Before anyone says anything, I know this is pathetic and I know you'll all say I'm stupid and infantile for posting this...so please scroll on if so. At Christmas I commented that my husband of 36 years had taken over/absorbed my gift from himself and was basically told to grow up - so am expecting a lambasting again.
My husband keeps taking over things bought for me. Jigsaws at Christmas, garden things, anything except books. I have a daughter who is expecting to borrow my car indefinitely as her useless, racist, sexist and narcissistic partner has finally been forced to get a job by the Job Centre, so perhaps this belief everything I have is available is inherited.
My husband says she is being unreasonable but does this type of thing all the time? I came back 10 days ago from a 5 day break with my sister to find he's done it again. The first computer game I've bought in 10 years has been downloaded, and played. I don't understand the machine enough to get back to the start, so, to me it is useless. I can only play when he is asleep anyway, as he controls the TV at all times. As I cannot get to the start, I cannot play as I have not seen the tutorial etc. I KNOW this is silly to get worked up about but...
Anything I do is wrong, not enough or just plain stupid and this is just a case of everything belonging to others...basically him. Last night, for the first time in weeks I chilled a bottle of wine- he no longer drinks. First it was, it'll stop me sleeping, then it will trigger an illness I have; I pointed out if I avoided every trigger, I wouldn't eat, drink, move, sit still, sleep or stay awake, as they can all be triggers at different times. Even his Dad (93) said he was being unreasonable. After 37 years married surely I have some right to existence?
We can't divorce as our living situation is tied to his Father's (who I love dearly), but I feel so miserably unimportant that I could and do cry. What can I do to make what seems silly to others tolerable to exist?
Six foot two, eyes of blue. kg v lb. cm v ft + ins
To think that London, or anywhere else for that matter, does not belong to any one demographic