Melanie, You haven't killed the thread. I have been away and just read this page. How sad that you feel let down by your friends,have you got one close friend? I really believe that as one gets older, you realise that those closest to you are usually the ones who you have known the longest,and all the rest are just passers by in life. I can count three people who would be by my side whatever happened, others that I have considered friends are really acquaintences who do not really want to know when things get tough. I think that is just life,and human nature,. I am lucky to have those three who really care and the others to have a laugh with. I feel you have had some bad experiences lately with friends, life is too short to have people in your life who make you feel bad. You want radiators not drainers.