Not sure why, but crying.

phoenix I so feel for you, I think you are so brave, I truly do not know what else to say except God Bless

Answering my own question, I think it was going through the photos.

No doubt all will be back to normal tomorrow.

Thanks to those that read, as you were!

Oh Phoenix I'm crying too. I just cannot imagine how unbearable the pain must be. I can't imagine how brave a mother has to be to carry on through life without them. But you have been brave for your son and your family. Remembering must be so painful.

phoenix Just a (((hug)))

Nothing else to say except

Phoenix sometimes we just have to visit that painful place ((((hugs))))

phoenix I wish I could ease your sadness (((hugs)))

Oh Phoenix it must hurt so much. Sending a hug.

Take care, Phoenix. Sometimes sadness can just completely disarm you, out of the blue. Have a restful night.

phoenix

I can't begin to imagine the pain of losing a child - I don't think you will get over it - you will learn to live with it. Looking through old photos will bring back memories but try to focus on the happy times - easy for me to say not so easy for you to do. If you feel like howling then go ahead, be kind to yourself.

Phoenix

phoenix, just go with it. It'll pass again. Jack had a fine, fine mum. xx

Dear Phoenix Marelli is so right - Jack has a wonderful mum.

You have been through so much recently, that it isn't surprising that the most painful thing in your life should come to the forefront now. You just cry if you need to, and you really do need to, I think.

We're all here, virtual tissues and shoulders at the ready, brave lady.xx

Phoenix I agree with sunseeker I do not think that one would ever get over losing a child, the best is that you can learn to live with it.

Did the recent trauma of job hunting and interviews etc bring this on or was it looking at photographs which triggered this emotion? I agree with Marelli, his mother was the best.

Hopefully Mr.P will be able to ease your sorrow, just by being there for you.

You've had a lot of emotions going on in your head just now Phoenix, just let it all out and it will pass. ((((Hugs))))

Nothing worse than photos for stirring emotions, phoenix Better to give in and have a good howl. You must be feeling drained at the moment but hopefully you'll feel better tomorrow.

Dearest Phoenix, my heart goes out to you. I lost my beautiful daughter just over a year ago. The ache is sometimes unendurable. Thoughts and prayers are with you.

phoenix & Dragonfly I feel for you and cannot even begin to imagine the pain of losing a child. It makes all other problems pale into insignificance. Treasure the memories.

for you too Dragonfly. I'm so sorry for your terrible loss.

Don't feel bad about it, Phoenix - tears are an expression of the love for all those years. And as for it having been 5 years - our baby son died 40 years ago and some you may remember how fragile I felt in October around the anniversaary of his birth. For thse who have lost children more recently the pain will still be raw and fresh, but when they say "time heals" maybe it does, or maybe it just enables you to deal with it better. Photos are a great trigger for sadness - I wish I had some though but I can just conjure up the memory of the love we felt for him and the good moments.

My heartfelt sympathy for your terrible loss Dragonfly