It's been a challenging few years for hubby & I. He's lost dad, brother & we then cared for his mum with dementia. When MIL passed it was DH time to grieve for them all and he became depressed, I put my feelings aside to support him even though I too was very sad. It was a difficult emotional time but I just carried on & then my mum got cancer & life got a bit more demanding. Things got tense between DH & myself because he was depressed & I just felt I was shouldering everything, he was signed off work, I was working & coming home and having to do everything & even felt I had to think for everyone too. Then Covid comes along, DH returned back to work as a Key Worker & I am working from home again an alleged Key worker & working long stressful hours including weekends in isolation. DH then becomes unwell & is admitted to hospital and we are told he has Cancer. Instead of bringing us together it's pushing us apart, he is fine and positive one minute and the next he's hateful towards me and uses me as a verbal punch bag.I've just hit rock bottom, I'm angry, frustrated, scared, exhausted and still putting on that smiley face to the outside world, carrying on working etc but feeling numb inside and feel life is just one struggle all the time. I wonder if any of you have experienced these emotions and reactions towards serious illness and what helped you through.
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