Born and brought up a catholic, I think because there's a certain amount of indoctrination at a very early age with catholicism it never really leaves some of us, so hard wired is that teaching from those early years. They knew what they were doing hence, the "Give me the child for the first seven years and I'll give you the man" Richard Dawkins argued that catholic and muslim children end up the most brainwashed, speaking for myself he does have a point.
I'd describe myself as lapsed, after a period which started in my teens as being full on atheist. I can't say I've completely abandoned it as I grow older, I do go back to church from time to time. Of course it's hard not to be critical of the church in light of all the revelations, I think anyone who has struggled with rejection of the church can be vindicated for doing so by what has been uncovered and I think it's entirely feasible to find a personal version of elements of what is personally acceptable to the individual within the religion and still be critical of it.
Part of me really wants to believe in Jesus and his message, I think he has been completely misrepresented by the catholic church since it's inception.
Although I had too much enforced church going in my growing up years, I feel strangely nostalgic for something I didn't enjoy at the time, that feeling is always heightened at Christmas time, longing I imagine for connecting with the true meaning rather than all the rampant consumerism that exists today around it. My parents were pretty full on catholics so we were forced to attend mass regularly, although I'm kind of pleased, I gleaned a tiny bit of Latin by osmosis along the way, so when I hear things quoted in that language is not a complete mystery. I think there was a lot of panoply displayed with the catholic religion from memory, maybe less so these days. I've heard it described as pure theatre and I can see why that conclusion might have been reached, all the incense perhaps!