Wasn't sure if this should have been on the health thread, the damn black dog!

It is very very normal to feel low when your job is not working out - I am sorry to hear it is not so good.
I got so fed up in my last salaried job that I used to drive as far as the car park outside the offices and sit and cry before I could gird up my loins and go in and face the day. It was at that point that I jumped ship - risky I know, but I never regretted it. I made a new freelance career for myself and never regretted the loss of income. But we were lucky enough to have paid off the mortgage by downsizing.
I know this is not an option for you at the moment, but if you are sitting there hoping they will tell you the job is not working out, then you must be really fed up with it. Is there any mileage in having a discussion with the employers and making suggestions that might improve things? You will probably have ideas that might be of benefit to them and you. Difficult I know when you are not feeling very assertive due to feeling low.
Mr P seems to have a good idea going there - a few days break. need not be expensive, but it might let in some light and air - and hopefully not rain.
Hang on in there! If this job is not right for you there may eventually be something around the corner. Don't blame yourself if it is not working out - it may just not be right for you.

Well!
Not the right thread!
But only appropiate

Have a really good night!

May the lord grant u a peaceful and tranquil night!

Phoenix you have been so upbeat dealing with all this that finding yourself in a dire job which doesn't use your talents is bound to pull you down. I so hope an employer who deserves you comes along.

phoenix - it's a difficult time for you, but you'll come through it (hopefully soon). Virtual support for you from me & hugs. Make sure that you have a little "me time" in each day to recharge your batteries

Phoenix (((hugs))) xxx

phoenix I don't know the history which so many people refer to you but I do understand what you are going through. I do urge you to seek help before it gets too bad. Those who keep telling you that you are strong and will get through it are well meaning but perhaps misguided. If you read a little book by Dr Tim Cantopher - Depression the Curse of the Stong you will discover that it is the strong who go on far too long 'coping' when the weaker ones give in and do not get depressed.

People cope in different ways and some just can't. Do go away if you think it will help but not if you will be going over and over the things which are getting you down, I know that it doesn't work. Getting some excersise will help if you feel up to it. It is not the answer but does help a little.

If you can find a few areas in your life that you are in control of that might also help but don't do to much.

I do hope you will find the means to cope.

Phoenix, I can't offer advice as I haven't been in your situation, but I can offer a hug and sympathy. One thing I would say is that as you haven't been away for so long is that if you could possibly manage it, a short break, even just a weekend away might work wonders.

Phoenix you've made us laugh and smile so often! Do what is right for you and, for a time, forget the money and be kind to yourself. (((hugs)))

phoenix hoping you feel better to-day I'm thinking of you,take care and be kind to yourself and mr.P things will pick up soon I'm sure.A pal of mine last week got a very cheap holiday all inclusive,she booked it Wednesday at 7pm and got to Manchester A/port at 10am next morning when she got there she was allocated a 5* hotel and all for the amazing price of £135.00 each,so if you need a break have a good think and go for it.

Silly question in a way Phoenix but have you been to see your GP? Sometimes we need some medical help to see us through. I fought against medication for years and now I wonder why! An understanding GP could help you on your way. Hugs and

Right, I have bitten the bullet on 2 counts, firstly I have emailed my employer to say that it doesn't seem to be working out, and secondly I have made a doctors appointment (next Tuesday was the earliest that I could see my preferred GP)

mrshat, I spent some time on antidepressants a couple of years ago and have been determined not to go back on them because of the side effects, but I can't carry on feeling like this.

Phoenix there are lots of different antidepressants so don't give up. They don't all have side effects for all people once they have been on them a while but it can take some weeks to get used to them and for them to take effect. Is there a GP in your practice who specialises in depression/mental health? Some do have them as it does take a lot of understanding and specialist knowledge to get it right.

Good luck and do keep us informed.

phoenix I am sorry. That bloody black dog haunts many of us. I had to give and have some medical help a few years ago and the new drugs are mcuh better, the only side effect I had was too feel much better. I do think it would help if we had some summer though. I hope you are feeling better soon.

This is spooky! I was reading this thread after lunch and the song 'Fat Bottomed Girls' by Queen popped in to my mind, which I refrained from suggesting phoenix ! I was just in the local garden centre where it was on the radio - haven't heard it for years!
Sorry about the black dog, hope you can feel a bit more positive soon.

Phoenix I don't know if it will help you but I found a link to a website yesterday called "My headspace". (Was a link on Ruby Wax's Black Dog website, another helpful site)
I went on to the section on meditation and just did the taster 10 minute section and it DID give me a better sense of wellbeing. You can only give it a try.

Hey Phoenix ! Extraverts don't like working at home. I know the feeling well. needing people to lift one's spirits. So it may not be "depression" but normal reaction to outgoing person in your current circumstances. Bloody recession. Any chance you could plan some social interludes? Get a "summer job" maybe?

So pleased you have bitten the bullet Phoenix. Like you, I had a course of medication which left me feeling rotten and I was not prepared to try again. However, for everyone's sake (including my own) I tried again and I am very happy with my current medication and could recommend it - strangely enough, my sister, who lives in Ireland, was also prescribed the same medication and it suits her very well too. Is this 'black dog' likely to be a genetic thing? I wish you well and hang on in there. Lots of fresh air and when we get it!

phoenix have taken beta blockers for last 19 years,and anti depressants. For the last 4years.
Rejection from prospective employers,redundancy,another form of rejection is a very personal thing impacting on your feeling of self worth,crank that up a bit,tired lack of money,crank it up a bit more previous history of depression,isolated in a solitary job and overwhelmed with a new job that you can't get to grips with,if like me you are a coper,you get by on the adrenalin,then when a situation/drama/crisis has been resolved you allow your self a wobble.....I am not surprised. You are feeling depressed,as been said before recognising your limitations and your triggers is half the battle...be kind to your self sending you a hug......is the song you are thinking of UNDER PRESSURE...that one tends to pop up in mine when I am up against it.....along with I WANT TO BREAK FREE.........xxxxxxxxxxxxx

nelliedeane many thanks for your post, yes I am "under pressure" but the sond was actually "I'm going slightly mad"!

Problem is, I am worried that this may be more than a wobble. Allover the place at the moment, posting daft/silly things one minute etc. Wish I could see my very understanding GP before next Tuesday.

Keep talking to us phoenix

Tuesday is not that far away phoenix - you'll get through this. As JessM said - keep talking to us. It helps keep things in perspective

Just seen your post on another thread - are the new knickers part of the retail therapy

Good luck with your appointment tomorrow phoenix - do let us know how you get on xx

Hope it goes well today phoenix, you could with some positive help as well as our virtual support xx

I echo Ella and yoga. Hope you have a 'happy' outcome!