This is going to sound garbled so I'll apologise now but I promise I'll try to make it make sense by the end!
I was quite ill about 15 yes ago and I didn't tell anyone (my children) until I knew for definite what was wrong as I just don't like to worry them unnecessarily.
I have been worried recently, for the past few months, as I've had some of the symptoms of breast cancer- nipples going inverted, like they're being pulled inward and some pain in that area on my left breast.
Anyway, I eventually went to doctors last Friday and am due at the hospital on Wednesday for the tests and stuff (they told me to allow 4 hours for appointment)
This has obviously been on my mind and as far as I can tell I've been a bit quiet and not talked as much, or been as bubbly as usual.
I have not wanted to tell my kids anything until I know for sure, although I'm doubting the wisdom of that!
I had a big argument, starting over nothing really, with my DD, and I told her
'You wonder why I can't tell you anything when you're like this with me!'
Anyway, she told my other DD, although I'd asked her not to as I knew how she'd probably react!
So my other dd was mad at me too and said I cannot see the DGC until I tell them what's up, what I'm not telling them.
For me this is the really weird part. I feel kinda numb. I was very upset when she told me but now I just kinda tell myself no and I refuse to dwell on it but I know my heart would be breaking if I allows myself to think about it.
This kinda thing happened last time in a way (ex buggered off as he couldn't cope with my news)
And I didn't deal with any of that till months later.
So it feels like that's happening now, like I'm in shock.
I just cannot tell them until I know for sure.
I have been seeing my dgc every day, and now, nothing.
Don't know what I'm asking for, just wanted to get this out of my head!
Why Are Blokes Obsessed With Noisy Gadgets??