I'm so sorry you've been upset today Beckett. I totally understand. I'm on my own too. My dear husband died very suddenly twelve years ago. I think of him every day, talk to him too and even dream we are having a lovely day together as it used to be. But when I waken I realise its not to be, unfortunately he's no longer with me. Its just so terrible but I have to keep going, life goes on. The problem with Easter I feel is it is the springtime and everything is awakening and looking forward to life. But life to me now is not how it used to be. But we need to make the best of what time we have left. I always have the radio or TV on when I'm having a meal as its a distraction to take me away from the fact that life now is not how I expected it to be. I try to be positive, I hope you can be too. Best wishes