Hello Msida, I think from personal experience you will start to feel more at home if you could have visitors. Have you any friends or family perhaps around your age, or grown up children who could stay for a few days here and there. They could help out or you could just enjoy some cheerful company, chatting and laughing and chewing the fat. Talk about what you’d like to happen next. What would make you feel better. Apart from the loss of your husband - I am presuming due to an illness, it can be like a sort of bereavement leaving behind a bigger house and all the things that filled it. It needs now for you to fill it with things that make you feel good, make your home nice to come home to spend what you can sensibly afford, think back on places you have been and what you liked about them and what you didn’t
Then step outside now and again if you’re able, take a trip to town, is your home nice to come home to, you’ll make it so. Keep busy, get some fresh air every day even in bleak weather and if you feel really rotten seek help and advice always, on GN.,, at your Doctors and through organisations who specialise in helping people through grief and loss. I sincerely hope this helps you see your way through the fog.