That is very Eloethan. I spent many years taking no joy in anything thanks to chronic depression. Unexpected visitors were a nuisance and threw me into a panic, our loving cat was just a pest whose needs had to be attended to along with all the other chores, picking fruit and then having to turn it into jam was another unavoidable chore, like writing Christmas cards and searching for Birthday presents. Now, with the depression chemically banished all these things, and more are a source of pleasure and indeed JOY.
I am so glad that modern medicine lifted me out of the black pit in time for the arrival of my very DGC. I do not even want to imagine what it would have been like to have experienced looking after them so often as a burden which had to be endured, rather than the joyful times, full of laughter and love that we have together. Maybe I am looking through rose tinted glasses as I acknowledge that, on occasion any of the DGC can be awkward and exasperating but perhaps you have to lose the ability to enjoy for a while to fully appreciate it when it returns.