I lost My Dad at 18, and my Mum in my 20's, and I still talk to them both every day!
I realised a few years ago that my children really missed out on knowing them, so I decided to write down everything about them that I could remember, the good, the bad, the traits, the habits, their favourite sayings and how easy going my dad was compared to my Mum, and my daughter and grandchildren absolutely loved it.
Now they feel they have some part of their history that they can one day tell their children about, and it was cathartic to say the least!
I put down as much as I could about my family including names of old Aunts and Uncles, and now my grandson is going to research the Family tree, which I am really looking forward to!
Maybe doing this will help let out some of the pain. Whatever you do, you are totally normal and allowed to feel, so let yourself. x