Morning everyone,
I know times are worrying at the moment and we are all affected in some way,but I'm feeling so low.I do go through phases of feeling off,I'm an expert in faking happiness,and would not share my feelings with friends/family.I have in the past sought out counselling,hypnotherapy,phsychiatric counselling.It stems back to abuse,when I was young.Two of my children were also abused by 2 "trusted" men(married to family members) no consequences as my children refused to press charges.Their wives were told and both men admitted every vile thing they had done.The wives stayed with the men! It was years ago now but sometimes my anger comes back and I cant deal with it.Who sticks by a paedofile husband.One of the men I see every now and then,playing the devoted husband,father.I find when I'm on my own,usually 12 hours a day when DH is at work,my mind gets busy.I do try to get on with life and have plenty to keep occupied.But sometimes,like yesterday,I wanted to curl up and do nothing! With the Covid 19 to add to my worries and lack of normal life,being able to go out and distract my brain,I feel I'm going crazy.I have alot of health issues and severe Arthritis,despite only being in my early 50's.So I cant just "go for a walk" I also eat my feelings,and have gained a good bit of weight,adding to my woes.What steps can I take to really help my mind,and keep positive and get my eating back under control.Sorry to waffle on.I feel just by writing this it has helped.