I've just been in the same situation with my ex husband at son's wedding. Ex husband was abusive and since divorcing him he won't look me in the eye, sneers, bad mouths me to the children...I have nasty texts, silly childish behavior (he sleeps around and is almost 60, usually with much younger women....is really full of himself, rude, arrogant, I could go on and on and you get the picture) oh, hang on, he also tells his new women and anyone hanging around him that I am abusive, took all his money and also that I am mentally ill, sleep around (I've never even had a one night stand ) I was with this revolting, abusive man for 20years and he made my life awful. He tries and fails to poison the children against me..
Divorcing him was one of the best decisions of my life.
I've totally digressed.... Right, so aside from all of this...just before we left for the wedding my dress broke, irreparable. Anxiety could have shot through the roof. My kids were laughing, I laughed and had to change into a neighbours dress. Long story. It fitted, but I had to have my arms showing whixh are not toned and then none of my makeup matched but I had five minutes to spare so had to get on with it.
We got there on time and on the way I chewed rescue remedy sweets, and in walks ex husband. I actually tried not to vomit as he makes me so uncomfortable. He made a beeline for the kids, ignoring me. I managed to say 'you look very smart '
He, of course, sneered at me, refused eye contact.
It was a room of maybe 25-30 people so I kept my nerve because it is not my day.
It was THEIR day..no one else's.❤️
At times my ex husband became a bit competitive and although he was holding it in, he created a funny atmosphere that just bounced off him....he slobbered all over someone quiet young who he knew who was going (whixh got noticed embarrassingly by a few people who came later) he didn't mix at all, just sat at his table and this was noted.
Several people did try to engage with me, telling me how the children were a credit to ME. (Not the both of you, ME) and I graciously made sure I said there were two parents and thank you. The only slip up I had was when another key family member said to me that my ex was a very difficult man...I replied that he hadn't changed and I know I got a bit tearful. I wish I'd said nothing.
A load of his old colleagues sat with him (all women) hanging off him 🙄 I got a few glares. They all looked quite glam and I looked decidedly a little bit old and I had a very long dress on that was classy but not an inkling of sexy or anything like that and do you know what? I am so so thankful for the dress because it kept me level, I didn't tug or pull at it, it looked smart enough for the wedding without attracting attention and I was comfortable!
You can do this!
Maybe keep off the caffeine, breath, notice other lovely things about the wedding, enjoy the other wonderful people that are there, stay sober, smile, relax and enjoy their happiness. Remember that if people do know about the bad feeling then they will be watching you a little to see if you react. (I was watching some of the table a little and one of the women was constantly looking up to try and roll her eyes at me and catch my Ex husband's eye. Embarrassed for them actually as others noticed this including the brides mum who sweetly made a massive point of saying how lovely I looked and made sure I was included in conversations.
Go through the things that might worry you but then shelve them as it will more than likely go smoothly.
It's their Day, so go along, stay sober and just have a brilliant time making memories x