AIBU to hate New Year

Totally lost for words - love and hugs to all

nellie, such sadness - like nanado and others, you are so brave. {{{hugs}}}

Will treat today like any other day and will definitely going to bed early,blankets over ears not to hear fireworks
3rd January is the anniversary of two losses,my dad. And Kate....will feel better settled when January over we have seen much loss in January...this year the reaching of 60 and a realisation that time is marching on has been a difficult one xxxxxlove nellie

nanad xxxxxx

nanado, I feel for you. I try to imagine what it would be like to have been in your situation and I can't. You are such a brave gran.
On New Year's Eve 1974, I was all alone in the old nurses' home which served as parents' accommodation at Birmingham Children's Hospital where my DS2, not quite 2 years old, had been admitted that day to be prepared for a major operation on his bowel. It was a cold and bleak place and suffused with parental anxiety, pain and grief. I was one of the lucky parents whose child did get better - he will be forty in two weeks' time and is a great dad himself - but there were all too many others faced with loss or the prospect of loss.
The worst New Year was January 1st 1986 when my then OH told me he'd found someone else. Devastated doesn't begin to describe my feelings. Rejection is one of the worst human experiences short of bereavement. In the long run it made me more independent and resourceful; more empathic and, I hope, prepared me to be a good granny.

You can see why I look forward to the New Year with some trepidation.

Nanado Such pain must have been unbearable. You have great strength of character. Your family is truly blest.

Nanado my thoughts are with you...

I must admit I feel a bit like jingl - having battled around Asda and queued 40 minutes to get out of the car park, I'm looking forward to doing virtually nothing for the next 36 hours...

Nanado. I can't imagine how you must feel. It's totally unthinkable. I'm so sorry.

I must admit I like this weather. It's sort of, tucked up/ light the fire weather. And when the sun's not shining you don't see the dust. Or the marks on the kitchen cupboards.

gracesmum is right Nanado, you are truly a brave lady and I'm sure your family count their blessings every day for having you xx

You are one brave lady, Nanado - not a thing I could have done, but how wonderful for his parents that somehow you found the strength . are not enough - I take my hat off to you xx

* graceemum* and others I understand completely. Thank you everyone for your flowers and hugs. It is exactly four years ago since we laid little Tommy to rest in a beautiful setting. The hardest thing I ever did was write and deliver his eulogy. You'd be amazed at how much a 15 month toddler can pack into a life. There are so many of us who have lost loved ones and I think this time if year, if it means anything, is about not forgetting. Since then I have had three more wonderful grandchildren to love and cherish plus the older one who is now six. I count my blessing every day for the gift of them.

You are right Sue162 our grandchildren are our cause for hope and our step into the future, but as kitty says, our experience of life has perhaps given us grounds for sadness and the awareness that s**t happens.
When we see their happy little faces - and I am acutely aware that for many of you, that would be a dream come true - it is hard to remain down for long. Get a grip, GM

I have never enjoyed New Year's Eve but for some reason I do like January 1st. When our children were young, I used to slip downstairs early and sit with my new diary and feel a great sense of peace. Despite our DC and beautiful GS and GD, I no longer get much pleasure from Christmas celebrations but I think the start of the New Year is a cause for hope and, most important of all - spring is on its way!! Yay!!!

nanado x

I thought it was just me feeling so low and sad. I don't usually feel like this at this time of year and have much to be thankful for. (((Hugs))) to you and yours Nanado and sending warm thoughts at this very poignant time.

And (((hugs))) to you too Ella and all others struggling through difficult times.

Had a text from my brother in South Australia about 3/4 of an hour ago wishing me a Happy New Year so its already 2013 there!

grace I hate New Years Eve, and I think my down in the dumps day yesterday was tied up in similar reasons to those you have noted and I still feel on the verge of tears which threaten to spill. We wont be doing anything tonight, I am now going to make a big pan of pasta sauce and we will have that later and if we manage it might just see in the New Year.

As I look out of my living room window, the sun is shining brightly on the large oak tree at the bottom of the garden....and on it (I've just counted) are 24 ring-collared doves - all facing into the wind! They gather here on and off during the day.

Nanado New Year being a day of celebration does make your sorrow a constant reminder. I can only hope for you that one day your blow will soften. Many hugs.

I suppose, as we get older, we have experience more things to make us sad and it does no harm to dwell for a while.

We have had some awful things happen in the fairly recent past and in the last year we have lost 3 friends and three more are suffering from serious illness. We count our blessings that we are still healthy but then worry about how long that will last. I am an optimist and always expect good things but, occasionally, dreadful thoughts overwhelm.

My heart goes out to everyone on here (or any where else, for that matter) who is sad, lonely, worried or in pain.

And thank you to all gransnetters for being so supportive to whoever, whenever.

This awful, awful weather can't be helping any of us. I just don't want to go outside.

nanado, it's so, so hard. And the time of year seems to make it all the worse. New days will dawn, though, and the sun will shine again regardless of what is being suffered. I'm sending you a warm arm around your shoulder. xx

Is it an age thing to feel such sadness do you think?
I don't think I have been so full of despair for a long time, my son's impending loss of sight is ever present for us both, my dad's death and daughter's troubles didn't help, and ds and dd being estranged is ongoing.

However, if this is rock bottom, I can only look upwards, and I shall endeavour to do so with the ever cheerful and supportive, wonderful friends on here

Like 'the all'? Wonderful. I feel the desire to try to learn the language coming over me.

das All (means space and that's infinite.......)