Good Morning All x.
Not particularly light outside as yet but it looks dry from what I can see.
Speaking of dreams, just before I woke up I was trying to shake a large Axminster runner
it was so heavy and kept folding. Even the colour was something I wouldn't have chosen---mustard ! ? It did have big flowers on it. What a peculiar dream.
Whether the heating engineer will get in touch I don't know but it's a good job it's not too cold yet, though in the evenings it's a bit miserable without a bit of warmth so I put the fire on for a couple of hours. The heating actually works but I'm scared that it fires up again after being switched off so I've left it alone in case it does it again.
Workmanship definitely isn't the same as it was because in the big house where I once lived there were 13 radiators and a big Potterton boiler and nothing went wrong. I'm very disillusioned when any work is carried out now. Nothing is the same as it was. Oh dear, I'm off again.
I might get a visit from D today with a heap of paperwork I want to go through. To cut a long story short when GD lost her partner this year----the dad of her children---she was jumped on by social services for " neglecting " the children but at the same time she'd needed support for the depression she was suffering and didn't receive it, hence why 3 of the children were put into foster care and D has the 3 older ones with her and then of course Ruby-Lou got out of hand with her behaviour and is in a private clinic in Durham. Nobody knows what's going to happen to the poor child.
The paperwork pertains to a court case this coming Monday probably via video-link I'm not sure, but GD wants her mum and I to support her. I'm going to study the paperwork for any anomalies or fabrications that there might be because GD is not a bad person and brought the children up to the best of her ability under difficult circumstances when her partner was in and out of hospital for the past couple of years suffering from lymphoma.
Empathy is not high on the list of social workers I'm afraid, but scoring points is. GD has a lawyer so I hope he's up to scratch because our whole world has been turned upside down. It's been an horrendous year with lockdown making things worse but I'm strong and will stand tall against anyone and providing I've got my notes in front of me I'll fight, although this isn't a case of blood being thicker than water in that it's my GD, it's about her rights and also those rights of the children too.
I aim to stamp out any hearsay and also fabricated evidence, as the knives will be out.
GD is not mentally strong at the moment and this is what she fears most as regards the children being with her, which is why she had been reluctant for help in the first place but with no support being given to her how is she expected to cope ? Initially there was, in March, then it fizzled out as soon as lockdown came. None of them had time to grieve over the loss of their dad. I'm disgusted with SS to be quite honest. Aren't they supposed to offer help and support ? Not whip up all the children and take them away from a vulnerable mother.
BTW, I " haven't mattered " in all this because I'm old and stupid----they'll find out otherwise 
Apologies for the long Sermon, but you can only keep quiet for so long with this going on and I do have a knack of " shutting off " so that it doesn't cloud my brain, thankfully.
What I don't want/need is pity nor sympathy as I'll deal with it as best I can.x
Anyway, after me crumpets, I hope everyone is alright and Mick I hope you don't have another of your turns---low blood sugar probably, so stay well.
Remain safe and well along with thoughts to those who aren't feeling very clever xx
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