Just got into bed - a bit later than usual. Normally 2.00am for me. DH is poorly and quite inactive - as a result we spend most of the day just sitting around. He is tired and goes to bed 10ish, so I relish a couple of hours on my own - I catch up with emails, then watch a Poirot/Morse at midnight. DH’s up to the loo half a dozen times through the night, so we’re in separate rooms now which works well for us.
Some nights my mind works overtime on what lies ahead for us - I’m reasonably fit, but have put a lot of weight on recently and am stressed about DH’s health. He has to ‘go with the flow’ for as long as he can, so I don’t want to upset him further by being ‘needy’ but he seems to have entered a gloomy phase - never a chatty person, but much worse now. His short term memory is poor - chemo brain, chemo by mouth and Pregabalin which he takes for peripheral neuropathy without much success to blame. He’s been quite deaf today and says his ears are buzzing, prompting more comments that he’s falling to bits now.
Have warmed up in bed, so dressing gown off, lights out and I’ll drop back into this thread again. X