I think the best years of my life were in my last years at school, I didn't have a very happy home life and I enjoyed my friends company, it was an escape for me, they were my confidantes. I also felt a deep sadness, that soon this would all end and I would no longer be free with my school life and friends. On our last day at school I was last out of my class and I was hoping all my friends were waiting to say goodbye to me in the cloakroom. No one was there, they'd all gone home. They were so excited at the thought of leaving school they couldn't wait to get out. Whereas I didn't want to leave, I felt devastated no one thought of me enough to wait for me, it took me all my strength not to break down and cry on my way home. I hardly saw any of them after leaving school. I couldn't believe the deep sense of loss I felt, it was like I was grieving for something I'd never have again. I've not had any one as close as my school friends. Ever!!! They helped me escape from my thoughts and they listened, we also had fun.