The Black Dog Gang

come on here and let it all hang out!

Thanks MissA and oldbatty. Most of the time it's fine, but the shares in the workshop really brought home to me how alone I feel right at this moment.

Oh gosh, that sounds an awful lot to cope with. It's hard isn't it to motivate when you feel low.

You can come here for support, NannaM.
In my opinion its what gransnet excels at.
Nice to meet you.

Hi all, it's really nice to see the support and kindness here. I've had a pretty torrid year being diagnosed and then treated for Breast Cancer. I have two DD's but one is estranged and the other lives thousands of miles away and my sister lives in the UK (I'm in Canada). So I'm feeling alone and very vulnerable. It's a feeling that I can push aside most of the time, but yesterday I went to a group workshop of post cancer survivors and they were talking about coping with uncertainty. Some of the people talked about the importance of support, especially from friends, and I felt so so sad. I have two friends but one is only in Canada during the summer months, and the other has moved away. We still correspond by email, but I feel really alone right now. I dropped my antidepressant/anti anxiety medication because it is contra-indicated with Tamoxifen, so I am going it alone, with the help of a CBT group. Sigh. Just helps to put it out there.

It's raining, I'm still not dressed....but actually, I realise I'm not feeling tearful/anxious/despondent at all. My Mirtazapine pills are working!

I think I'll get ready soon, force myself to go out, even if it's just for a mooch around the local shops. Seeing my 2 little GDs after school for a couple of hours, so that'll be good.

I hope you all manage to have a good day.

Oh yes! My fingers are crossed for you, most definitely. Onwards and upwards.

I had a good day today. I think the meds have finally started to help a bit with the anxiety. It’s taken a long time but I have been able to go out on my own again without worrying about it all night. Fingers crossed I am on the up!

That's the kind of job I need..
Sounds lovely for all involved.
I'm ok ish. Just worn out at the moment.
I think if I could find a bit more energy I would see and improvement all round.

How's everyone's day been?

I went to work (it's not like work, it's like a social club) - I'm the Manager of 2 day centres for elderly people - we've all had a laugh and gone home happy. That's what life is about, isn't it?

Tomorrow, though...who knows? I've realised, at last, that we have to enjoy as much as we can, whenever we can.

I hope you're all doing alright today.

Please don't let my ramblings about Birmingham put people off posting. How is everybody doing

I think we should have a goddess meet up and Birmingham is half way to nowhere.

Oh, scratch the surface and my inner goddess comes out.
She is just buried under a mound of 'life'

Ah but scratch the surface and......

Oh, if only, batty.
Nothing so interesting, I'm afraid.
Grey and rather mousy is more my style.

Lets ( for fun ) say how we visualise each other!

Miss A , you are auburn haired and greenish eyes. You cannot resist a scarf thrown art fully over one shoulder.
You sport a pair of trusty boots from the 70's. Nobody knows you wore them years ago ,but assume they were from some niche artisan outlet. You prefer leaf tea in a China cup and have a secret crush on David Suchet.

Oh yes, that is absolutely the last thing anyone who is down should be dealing with..
This is a support thread, so it won't happen here.

Hang on a minute my lovely friend, you must not be driven off here by somebody else. Please come on this thread and tell us your ups and downs. We care about you.

Just a quick hand in the air; I am still here, but struggling a bit with family issues which are taking up a lot of my time. Have started vitamin supplements as prescribed by GP, will report on progress. Not joining in on GN at moment as just can't be bothered with a certain poster who picks on everything I say and is confrontational, don't need her in my life, even if it is only online.

Thanks folks....its that catch 22 thing though isn't it.....you don't do things because you feel lousy and on it goes.

batty ? x

Fantastic 0ldbatty Yoga should also help.

Thanks and welcome garnet. You are right. I tried an hour today and went to yoga. Feel fine now.

Old Batty do use your light box I'm sure mine helps me. Thank you for starting this thread and I hope that I may join. I only found the thread yesterday and have just finished reading through it. I have suffered off and on from the Black Dog for over 43 years since the birth of my first child and have had 3 spells in hospital with it. No time to write much now but wanted to flag up how much a light box helps.

batty, try switching the light box on ? ? go on try it x