I am wide awake at 2am, which seems to be the norm for me. My ears are ringing. The noise is like a horrible high pitched electrical whine. It's become louder over the last few months. I just wanted to say thank you for the thread, and for all your posts. Hilda's thoughts made such sense. I tend to go with the flow but find all sorts of worries racing through my head if I don't keep my brain occupied. I have always been a worrier. I take amitriptyline in the evening but it seems ineffective these days even if I up the dose. (I have my GP's permission.)
I am worrying about recent health problems and tests. I get the results next week.However, I try to remember I musn't worry unnecessarily as it does no earthly good and won't change anything. I also wear a bit of a jolly, capable mask during the day. I don't want to drag others down and tend to be a leaning post, or a shoulder to cry on for others. I'd rather do that than talk about myself. Pride is one of my faults.
I do try to go with it and accept my night time anxiety. I know it will keep me awake so I prepare to read. Even listening to OH snoring away can be soothing. I may do as suggested and get myself some earphones and listen to music. The quiet of night makes my tinnitus more noticeable. I endeavour to stay in bed too, because if I get up I get a second wind and have no desire to go back to bed. I should return to reading proper books in bed too, rather than Kindle editions. I know bright screens before bed aren't a good idea. I also drink lots of tea during the day so I think I'll have to watch my caffeine intake after 5pm.
I haven't mentioned my tinnitus to my GP because I have so many other health concerns, and tests ongoing, but I get the impression, from reading about it, that it's one of those awful conditions I'll have to live with.
I know how awful constant anxiety is Nanamarch and hope you can bring it under control. It feels like every part of the body tenses up, so it really is difficult to enjoy anything. Oh for an ON/OFF switch, for that and tinnitus.
Wishing you and other anxious posters a good night's sleep.