Black dog gang

Hi Joce, I don’t know when she will be able to come, she has her exams this week and beginning of next week, her car still in the garage so she is staying with her brother in Cardiff this week, near the University.

I miss her so much , she will come as soon as she can. It is very lonely though.

How has your day been ?

Hi Annie have you heard when your granddaughter is come to see you? Hope it soon..

It was Nonnie, no one wanted to talk about it so I just had to get on with it... my mother had 9 children with no problems so she never spoke about it.. the only think mum said to me was what you never had you never miss.. I still long to hold my baby. I did go on to have 3 more.. thanks to a fantastic gynaecologist..

That sounds horrible Joce.

wot glad they turned up, hope they do all that heavy work.

There must be a way for you to keep your appointment x

Yes Maggie mine get worse.. this time has lasted now 7 months with no let up.. I am like you desperate for help.. do you take any medication Maggie.. I take Prozac but don’t think it does any think..

Thanks Maggie I will certainly look in see if I can find him.. my first child only lived for 5mins, I didn’t even get to see her because I had a C section.. I was in hospital for 21 days after, I was on the maternity ward with baby’s alround me... I had been home for 6 week when a man from the hospital knocked at me door and asked me what I would like to do with my baby? Did I want to arrange the funeral are did I want them to.. my head was in a bit of a mess at the time.. no one to talk to nothing at all.. they did thinks so different in the 70s horrible time.. so much has changed thank goodness.

marie and wot, correct! They are interesting .

Sorry no, would it help to get it?

Yes wot

Lily it’s the Parent Adult Child stuff isn’t it? I’ve still got the books on my shelf - must have a re-read as I remember being blown away when I first read him.

Is that "I'm okay, you're okay?"

Is anybody familiar with the theory of Transactional Analysis and the work of Eric Berne. It is most illuminating.

I did understand that Annie just thought my experience was relevant to the way things have changed. Actually that incidence was only one person who understood, mostly they just wanted to get rid of me and people didn't talk about it at all. These days there are places where people can go with memory plaques for their miscarried babies. Things have improved in both cases.

Nonnie my reference to our mothers was related to post natal depression, death of a baby or a miscarriage would have caused understanding, no one knew about post natal depression, bonding etc , women had to struggle on

I slept last night so feeling a bit better today. Made myself go into the garden and start reseeding bare patches on the lawn, Feel better for doing it. Sometimes I just have to push myself to start.

Annie I hope things are better for young mums these days, I didn't see the programme. I remember being taken into hospital with a threatened miscarriage and put into the next bed to someone who wanted to chat to me about why she was in there - a termination. The following night curtains were drawn round someone else while she had her induced abortion. It was hard. However on another occasion I was crying because I could hear a new baby crying and my baby was bleeding out of my body and a wonderful nurses helper sat crying with me for ages and understanding how hard it was for me. I think there have always been people who cared but these days they are trained to do so.

eek Dr. Stab sounds rather scary.

Wot my mum has wet AMD and it's really important that you get this looked at asap. Have you been diagnosed? They give her regular injections to keep it under control. You could try hospital transport as Annie suggests and at the GP I work for, we arrange it and liaise with the hospital.

Annie, I must try and visit your neck of the woods - it sounds like heaven.

Gardener turned up about ten minutes ago. Nice enough chap. He's going to let me know the price tonight. I do find ig worrying waiting for people. This gardnet and his mate seemed to know he's job though. Petty concerns of mine but like someone said, everybody's worries are big to them. Took my mind off mg AMD though! Hope eveyone is having a good day. Sit on your doorstep in the sun, Annie! Excuse typos please.

We have a community group - a registered charity - who voluntarily provide transport for hospital appointments. They don't ask for money though they appreciate donations.They drove me when I had a fractured shoulder. They are called 'Open Hands' and similar groups exist in neighbouring towns. It would be worthwhile to contact the Community Transport Association to find out if there's any such organisation where you are.
ctauk.org/

wot here the surgery arranged an ambulance bus pick up but you are collect as a job lot which means you have to wait for return journeys until everyone on board have their appointments. Perhaps the hospital not the surgery arranges it , not sure

I i looked into getting help with transport to hospital but they said you had to be physically unable to use a taxi. Well, I'm financially unable as it costs £70 there and back.
The gardener hasn't turned up. This is the second one to fail to turn up. I just feel like giving up. The eye appointment is urgent because of AMD

maggie I have help with fees for my counselling from a charity, couldn’t afford it if I didn’t have this help.

When I said about the colours of the Beacons I forgot white,
dread seeing that , also the Beacons are very useful for forecasting the weather, white means - here comes the snow, if they seem very close - rain , it they seem further away - hot weather arriving. And they are an official spot for
star gazers, no street lighting for miles, people come here to study the stars and moon.

Annie, what lovely colours I hope you'll be walking your beloved hills before long. Joce, it was just a comment I found from a doctor, I think he's American but do google him and you might find more. Your GP (I assume that's the one who's been so dismissive of you) has absolutely no idea - why should HA get better with age? Don't bother with her again. Mine is getting worse and worse as I get older and that's why I'm so desperate to try and do something about it.

Could you afford private counselling? We have a charity in our area that offers counselling based on income, so I'm hoping I might be able to see someone for about £25 a session which I can just about afford. I simply have to do something so I can start living my life again. You do have such positivity in your life Joce, with all your lovely children and grandchildren.

Wot, is there a scheme in your area that gives lifts to people who don't have their own transport? We have something called the Good Neighbours Scheme.