I'm sorry you feel depressed, Sparkling. At risk of rolled eyes (because of the apparent difficulties people are having getting appointments), could I suggest you ring your GP?
I'm sure you are not alone. Lockdown and the whole Covid nightmare has been mega-weird, bound to make people feel strangely disturbed, fed up, and even depressed. We have had to make a lot of adjustments to what we thought (what IS) normal behaviour.
Speaking for myself, I can't wait for the whole scenario to end. I'm not going to be joyous or anything; I'm just longing to feel free in a normal, healthy, everyday way.
All the best 