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HVDY I’m glad your eyes are improving but they still sound very sore. You made me laugh detailing what your DH ate while he was off his food. 🤣🤣
Yes, yesterday’s lunch out was nice. Today I went for afternoon tea with my neighbour. It was lovely she made it all look so nice and sent me home with leftovers so I didn’t have to cook tonight.
Wyllow can’t remember if I’ve asked this before but have you ever thought of having grief counselling? I wonder if it might help you with all the feelings you have about your ex,
I’m glad you got out for a walk today. It was certainly warmer here. Nothing much I can do to help with the what’s the point feelings I think it’s something only you can get to grips with when the time is right. I had a lovely morning at art. Lots of fun, then cried on the way home because DH wouldn’t be there with me when I got home. Nothing can stop those feelings they just come and go in waves. We just have to hope the waves get smaller as time goes on,
Scaredycat glad you are feeling a bit better and hopefully soon you’ll be able to go to the cat cafe. Our granddaughter loved working at the one in Bournemouth.
Oh I’m so sorry about your GD. That must be so painful for her and so difficult for her to get around, How old is your GGS? Will your GD be able to cope?
nadateturbe lovely to hear from you. Glad you are still making it to your art class. I really enjoy mine and it’s a good distraction. Thank you for your kind thoughts. Love and hugs to you too.
Lucyd that sounds really cold and wet. So glad you had somewhere to go for a few days. I bet you can’t wait for your new home to be finished,
Sweetpeasue wondering how you and your DH have been today. I hope it hasn’t been as painful for you.
Have you been able to book an appointment for your DH to see the Doctor next week?

Hello ladies just popping in, have had a challenging few days with one DD with a sick bug and the other had a bad cold so had to keep them both off all week whilst trying to work from home. They are both better now and back at school, but I’m not feeling well, have come down with 3 large cold sores, they make me feel so rubbish, gives me really bad neuralgia and earache, headache etc. they always affect me like this. I’m using Zovirax and taking paracetamol, hope they will be gone soon, I look like I’ve been in a fight.
I’ve bought some Lysine tablets to take as well which hopefully will help.
Thinking of you all xx

nadateturbe so good see you in. Not forgotten! Like where you name came from and much otherwise

Thats a tough time there Lucyd! Glad you are back on the internet now.

Glad you are a wee bit less sore, Scaredycat good to hear that the Cat Cafe can be re-scheduled. How strange that it was exactly the same stair that caught up poor GD.

Sometimes letting people in a bit hurts more after like it reminds me of what is lost (or I feel is lost, which of course is different in terms of say my family). I’ll look up those jersey trousers on M and S.

Today the hairdresser came and she is a full on chatter which actually helped as it wasn’t emotional.

Sorry to hear of your son HVDY., glad he found someone else in the end. You’re really having a tough time with your eyes and sad you had to miss the day centre.

How thoughtful of your neighbour, Doodle. As ever, hugs for your feelings you have to deal with every day.

(I did do some counselling before I broke down: it still tears me apart... Ex lives just 6 miles up the road and yet is “gone” - without me knowing if I was really loved…it was his MH stuff - .... I had to stop the counselling as it triggered too much “whats the point” stuff.)

Warm waves to you Elvera1 because you sound really under the weather with horrible cold sores and needing more sleep. I hope it lifts as soon as possible.

Thinking of Sweetpeasue and all other BD’s and may all have best nights possible.

today is doggy sitting day and he’s making a meal of it. Ds and family are going this morning and he seems to think he’s got to be there right away. Said dog is on its own most days till at least 3 ish and is perfectly fine. Anyway up to him.
I have written a list of jobs to do and will start as soon as he goes.
I will also try to see the neighbour about the wall.hes still never been out to see the damage.
I’ll try today and tomorrow but if no .luck I will put a note through the door.
Sorry so many are having health problems. At least January is almost gone and the nights are lighter.

Doodle My husband exaggerates (I've told him a thousand times to stop it ). How nice of your neighbour to make such a lovely tea and then give you some to take home. Hope you have another good day.

Elvera1 There are so many viruses going around at the moment. Your coldsores must be painful. I hope the medication helps soon.

Wyllow3 I would think he did love you, but was so unwell himself. Would you ever consider moving? Will you be able to get out for a walk today?

EllieAnne I'm glad your husband saw sense and agreed to dog-sit. Will your house insurance cover the wall?

It's a grey day here. Had intended going out for some fresh air, but it's now poring with rain, so I'll get some chores done soon. Hope ALL BDers manage to have a decent day. DH is being entertaining again - he's just had a Cadbury's Twirl x

Afternoon everyone. Hope today has been a sunny one for you. It was lovely in sw Scotland but as I was working I didn't really see much of it! Still, at least it is light when I get home now which makes a huge difference.
HVDY - painful eyes sounds awful. You have my sympathy. I used to work with visually impaired children and was in awe of how they managed their eye conditions - I know I would have been a total wimp!
Wyllow3- a walk or even just sitting in the sun can help I find. My SAD lamp helped me but unfortunately it is packed away and there us no hope of me finding it before I move. It must be so hard for you after what your ex put you through and very, very difficult to build your confidence back up. You do deserve to be happy.
Doodle - I am glad you enjoyed your lunch - sounds like exactly what I would have chosen too. Helping to fund raise for the hospice is a lovely way of giving back.
Sweetpeasue - it must be so worrying and frustrating for you re medical issues. I know, from personal experience, that it is not uncommon for errors to be made and for different departments not to liaise with each other. I wouldn't hesitate to " pester" now.
Scaredycat - ouch! That must have hurt. I have never heard of a minor injuries clinic before but it sounds like a super idea.
Whiff - lovely to read your post and that you are on the mend.
Sorry to anyone I have missed out but am thinking of you all. Take care xx

Oh I'm so sorry everyone. I feel no energy to post but I tried and 20 mins in to posting lost the lot!
Don't feel I can write as much again so

Nadateturbe So good to see you in and you still have art class to look forward to despite all your disability.
LucyD Thank goodness you have your caravan back after the storm. I so appreciate your kind words about health issues.
Elveral Cold sores are of the Devil and you are so affected by them with all the added pain they cause. Truly horrible ,I feel for you and hope they go soon.
HVDY Hope your eyes are feeling a bit better with the drops. You are doing so well with your diet despite your DH munching on all the naughties.
Wyllow Your heart is so broken and it must be hard knowing your ex is so close too. Wish there was something I could say. Good for getting the hairdresser in- that's really brave.
Doodle Do hope you've had a day without too many tears. What a lovely neighbour you have. The kindness of others make such a difference.
Our GP is back next week - we can't pre-book but he is only one there who does F2F so well ring on the morning when we're usually luck enough to get in to see this particular one , fingers crossed.
EllieAnne Really hope you find some peace and relaxation, between all those jobs you have lined up and you have your house to yourself.
Scaredycat Hope your bruises are healing and you're feeling less sore by the day.

I feel like such a moaner to keep posting much the same. Think it's sometimes better not to come in. Yesterday met up with the lady from MH group and so stressed and nervous . It was hard( she's quite severe difficulties) . Later so exhausted I slept an hr on sofa and the pain in all my body afterwards could hardly move. DH drilling to put blind up today and he's glad he managed but so many problems- took him ages, sweating. Done too much and the huge noise made me relapse , difficult to explain but pain became worse.
Sorry I'm not very cheerful. New day tomorrow. Must try and take aunt out.

Thinking of all BDs and those not personally mentioned. Hope you have a peaceful night.x

Elveral sorry it sounds as though you are a bit run down too. Must be hard bringing up two girls on your own. Glad the girls are better. Hope the weekend brings an improvement for you too. I’ve always used blisteze for cold sores but I expect it’s the same sort of thing.
Wyllow I think you’re tearing yourself apart going round and round in your head as to whether or not your ex loved you. I am sure that he did as much as he was able. You know MH affects your mind and thinking. I would accept he loved you but that his mind couldn’t cope. Glad you got your hair done and had a natter with your hairdresser.
EllieAnne I hope you get some time to yourself and can sort out all the things on your list. Good idea about putting a note through the door of neighbour if no reply.
HVDY my neighbour is lovely. I am very lucky to have her close at hand, We’re going to the hospice tomorrow for lunch and then knitting.
I love Cadburys twirl. Can’t blame your DH for wanting one.
Are your eyes feeling any better today?
Lucyd it’s been sunny here too and quite mild. My friend and I went for a fairly long walk, it was nice to get out but my legs ache now. Have you any plans for the weekend?
No Sweetpeasue it is not best to come in. You don’t have to write much if you’re tired but we do want to know how you are and sometimes it helps to put down in writing how bad things are, On this thread you don’t have to hide your feelings it’s the reason we are here.
Sorry you felt so bad, hope tonight you have a good sleep and feel better tomorrow.
Scaredycat how are you feeling today, any better? How is your GD today? Is she in hospital? Hope there is someone to help her.

LucyD It was grey and raining here. My eyes feel bad, but I'd never compare it to anyone who has real problems. I know mine will get better soon.

Wyllow3 Glad you managed to have your hair done. Was it a trim, or wash and blow-dry?

SweetpeaSue Your husband works hard and tries to get on with things. Do keep posting, we all have different worries/problems, and we share them. We all have each other.

EllieAnne Hope you're enjoying having the house to yourself for a while.

Doodle My eyes are still very sore and itchy, and the eyelids are driving me mad with soreness and irritation. I'm glad you manage to get out and do things as often as you do.

Son1 will be here in the morning, helping DH to move some stuff from the loft. GD1 will be here, too, so she'll enjoy playing with Little Girl for a while. Hope ALL BDers have a restful night x

Hi all
Just to say hello!
I wrote a lovely long post and it wouldn’t go then it disappeared!!!! Will post tomorrow I,m tired to write again. Love to all and hope you all manage to have some restful sleep despite so many problems both physical and mental. Night nightxx

I hope you find your time alone rewarding, EllieAnne.

Yes! I'd like to move HVDY to a flat but not well enough atm.
Well done on your chores day. Your eyes must drive you spare.

I do admire you managing in a caravan, LucyD, and hope you get more sun when you are not working.

Yes Doodle my mind is aware of its own distortions (so much therapy) yet atm I cant use the information mind to poorly. Wise on Ex.

Well done for your sunny walk and I'm glad to hear its a hospice day tomorrow. x for those alone moments.

Sweetpeasue I'm aware of posting "the same" as well at times but I sort of take the risk on a MH thread no one is judging or thinking "it should be different.

Acceptance is everything. Wishing for you that you get a decent appointment with the GP you trust next week and that its helpful. Sorry it was a lousy day.

Aw, poor *Scaredycat! Your lovely post disappearing xx

Night night all, see you tomorrow. My tum bad today and under the weather. Will really try to get out tomorrow if its sunny.

So thankful for your responding posts to me. Sorry you lost your lovely ,thoughtful posts Scaredycat.
Doodle- you're going through so much yourself- a big thankyou for accepting my moans.

HVDY Yes- so much- we all have each other.
Wyllow No one is judging ,you say , and we take the risk. I hope the same -
Hope your tum is relieved tomorrow.
Night all that are on this thread.x

Hi all
Doodle- what a dear ,kind person your neighbour is. Lovely to have some delicious leftovers later on too.
Your friendly Art class is so good for you- for a few hours you can be yourself and have some fun with your classmates.
Those waves of sadness will wash over you when you least expect it but will eventually lap there more quietly and you will achieve more moments of peace.
My poor GD is not in Hospital but has a big boot and crutches. It’s cumbersome as she is a teeny weeny person . But she’s 38 and teaches a Reception Class so nothing much fazes her! My GGS was 10 on Friday and his sister is nearly 12 so they can help along with their Dad .
You have a lovely sunny day for the Hospice today- hope you and your friend enjoy your lunch and knitting session.
Elveral- Oh you must feel so uncomfortable- any one of those things is unpleasant but all at once is a lot to cope with.
Glad the girls are better and hope the tablets are helping you. Try and rest when you can - do you have time off at weekends?
Take care.
Wyllow- yes it was the equivalent step on her own stairs!! We’re both as daft as one another!!
It must have done you good to have a proper natter with your Hairdresser. No pressure. You could do with more of that. You don’t need to keep revisiting those painful memories - it is so destructive. I,m sure your Ex did love you but he was the one with problems and you are left with the fallout. I so wish you could have the better days you deserve.
Could you perhaps go to M&S with your nice carer and have a look at some comfy clothes. They have sweaters reduced as well at the moment.
Hope you,ve managed to get your dear self into the sun today.
EllieAnne- hope you’re enjoying your freedom. You,ll feel good when you,ve got through the list. This is an opportunity for you to feel free in your home - take advantage and don’t work too much. Have some nice food and a glass or two this evening.
Maybe your DH might have a moment to think about his behaviour . At least he’ll have to get off his bottom and walk the dog!!
HVDY- hope you’re having a nice day with Little Girl. Lovely she’ll have GD1 to play with her too.
Hope your eyes are getting better it’s been so long to put up with this discomfort.
I didn’t realise that Cadburys Twirl was Diet Food - wonder if KitKats are too! Your DH is a hoot.
Lucyd- glad the sun has been shining on you it must make life in the caravan much more pleasant. You are so uncomplaining about what must be such a change for you. But at least you know it’s not for ever and that you have been able to help your Son and his family. Take care of yourself.
SweetPeaSue- oh no you lost a post too!! Isn’t it the most annoying thing. You managed to write a better replacement than I did though.
Do hope you get an appointment next week.
No you are NOT a moaner and never stop coming in. Whatever you say is so important for you and you need to share it - that’s what we are here for to help our friends.
Hope you,ve been able to see your Aunt today even for a short time. It,ll do you good to get out. Hope your Sons MiL is doing OK now.

Have been out this morning and felt about 102!, But no stick and walking easier. We had a coffee out and did a bit of shopping. As usual overdid it a bit but can’t sit on my butt all day!!
Sending love to all BDs regular and not so regular. Hope the sun is shining on you today as it is here.

Hello everyone.

Definitely won’t be walking the dog. It’s too lively and would pull him off his feet. It will just get out in the garden.
Ds 2 and family came today. Ds wanted to help me with the garden so we moved some bricks but didn’t make much difference. I ve got the night to myself. Got some of my jobs done.
Going to cook some pasta and have a glass of wine 🍷

EllieAnne Enjoy your night in with your pasta and wine. You so deserve some time to yourself.
Nanny2507 Nice to see you in and hope you've been OK. Your DGC must have grown quite a bit by now.
Scaredycat Glad you managed to get out for a while- you're a real trooper. Don't over do it though. Thanks son's MIL is now back home .
Don't know what I do to lose the post. I write it on my mobile so think my finger must stray too far onto the ' backward' symbol.
Wyllow Hope you managed to get out today and your tum isn't too bad.
HVDY Your DGD1 will love to play with Littlegirl and I'm sure be a real help. Sorting out stuff in the loft is a nightmare isn't it. Where does all this stuff come from? We've different quilt togs n sizes, Christmas stuff and goodness knows what else. Hope your eyes are a bit better today - they're such a nuisance.
Doodle Hope you've enjoyed your lunch a t the hospice today . What are you knitting now? I've started another doll but it's been left on the side for over a week.

Took aunt out this morning. She'd been struggling to get badly deformed arthritic fingers into gloves so I'd bought her some furry mitts. She thanked me politely but I'm afraid they looked far too big for her tiny hands -like oven mitts! DH and I managed to walk a mile on sea front too which was nice.
Finally managed to get new blinds up on landing window. I was terrified the other day as DH drilling holes stood on a stool at top of stairs with me holding him so glad that's finished. He had such a job with his poor fingers numb.
Really tired and achy now but glad today has been better . Thankyou all for your support. It means a lot.
Wishing a peaceful night for all and not forgetting those not personally mentioned.x

HVDY your eyes sound so sore and painful. I hope they get better soon. Do you have the urge to rub them? Be nice for your DGD to be with little girl and play.
Scaredycat it’s good your great grandchildren are old enough to help looking after mum. Hope she’s not in too much pain.
My neighbour is wonderful, I don’t know how I’d have got this far without her support. Glad you were able to get out today. It’s good to have a little walk and a coffee. I love people watching . Hope you’ve had a good day.
Wyllow do hope your tum settles and you can get out tomorrow. Being outside does you good. I saw my first daffodils today, spring is on the way.
Sweetpeasue you are not moaning. You have worries and concerns just like the rest of us. Please don’t feel you have to hide it from us. We all care about you.
Nanny how are you? It’s a while since we’ve heard from you. How old is your grandchild now? Are you coping any better.?
Ellie Anne nice of your son to want to help. Glad you had some time with him and the family. Hope you have a relaxing night tonight.
Sweetpeasue I’m knitting squares to make a blanket for age concern. With the heating allowance cut backs many can’t afford to keep the heating on.
Nice for aunt you took her out. Pleased you got to walk by the sea. That I’ll lift your spirits.

Wyllow3 I hope your tum settled down later on. It's been a cold day but perhaps tomorrow will be decent enough to go out.

ScaredyCat Your poor GD. The schools will be on holiday this month, won't they? (February), so at least she might be able to rest a bet then, if her children can help out a bit. DH had a ham roll and chips for lunch, then some chocolate trifle. He's so funny.

Nanny2507 How are you?

EllieAnne Hope you've had a nice evening - wine and pasta, and the house to yourself. Nice that you saw your son and his family.

SweetpeaSue I bet your aunt was pleased (and warm) with the new mittens. Glad your husband fixed the blind up ok. It must have been worrying for you with him on a ladder like that.

Doodle Yes, I could scratch them out. Well done on the knitting, especially for a good cause.

LittleGirl was happy and well-behaved, as usual. GD1 carried her around, played and read with her. Lunch was at the pub, then Son1 and GD1 went home. Seeing LittleGirl and her dad (Son2) tomorrow. Hope ALL BDers have a restful night x

DH and Son1 knocked out a chimney from our front bedroom. It's like a building site now but most of the room is being plastered in a couple of weeks. One of my eyes is driving me mad - sore, gritty, watering, blurry - it's a relief when I go to sleep. I've also got a stye now.

Hi doodle & sweet my DGS is absolutely gorgeous. I adore him. He's a little chunk. Many rules in place from his mum who had ADHD and is a nervous 1st time mum. But I now get daily cuddles and THE most beautiful smiles. Still coping very badly and DGS and parents move out in 2 weeks and will be 5 hours away. Things will only get worse.

Evening all
HVDY hope your eyes are better. I’ve only had conjunctivitis once and it didn’t last that long thankfully. I hope yours clears up soon. You make me smile with descriptions of your DH’s diet. We have family members too who are always going in a diet and their favourite saying is (while tucking into a big meal) “we’re going back to weight watchers on Monday”🤣. Dieting is hard though and I admire anyone just for trying. I would like to lose some but I don’t really diet just try to be sensible and I like some treats. Hope your day has been ok.
Scaredycat hope your GD is managing with her injury. I hope your day has been ok.
Sweetpeasue your DH tries so hard to keep going and that can only be a good thing. You don’t moan, just offload and that’s a good thing too. We all need to do that at times and it’s good we’ve got this platform in which to do so. Well done on taking your aunt out. You are so good with her.
Doodle glad you’re doing some nice things. I hope those waves get calmer soon. You do so well.
Wyllow I hope you’ve managed to get out today and have had something nice to eat.
Elveral Hope you are better too and your girls are fully recovered.
Lucyd hope you’re managing in the caravan. At least it’s getting lighter now but still some cold days which will hopefully get better soon too.
EllieAnne hope you’re enjoying some much needed me time
.Nanny & Nadaterturbe good to hear from you both.

Short post tonight as have had a busy few days. Wishing everyone a restful night. Night all xx

Hi just popping in, thanks for your kind words it means a lot. It’s keeping me going in fact. It’s easy to get caught up in work and kids and sorting everything out at home as you know and not take any time for myself. So now reading gransnet is nice and I look forward to reading it when I’ve got a few minutes.
I don’t work at weekends unless it’s anything urgent.
I’m actually feeling better. My face has stopped aching, and the rest of me too, and my lip is getting better too.
I’ve had a good day today, family came round and helped me with some jobs at home, it was lovely to see them, and just to have someone to chat to, and to take my mind off things. I also went on my exercise bike which I haven’t done for months, so glad about that.
Apart from that I’m taking it easy and it’s really nice.
Wishing you all a restful night xx

I got stuck and it was a dressing gown day, although I did manage a long phone call with the bank paying off my mortgage and it was easier than I thought. But it was supposed to be the together house of course.

Read all your days and pictured them (yes, I have these little pictures of you all believe it or not!)

So night night for tonight xx

Hi all.
Nanny- lovely to hear from you and pleased you,ve been having plenty of cuddles. You must be dreading the little family moving soon- and quite a way away too. I seem to remember you were considering moving near them - is that still a possibility? At least Spring will,soon be here and you will be able to visit them. They will miss you too.
We’re always here for you.
EllieAnne- it must have been so nice to have a visit from your Son and family that you could relax and enjoy. He sounds kind .
Hope you enjoyed your peaceful evening and managed a good sleep.
SweetPeaSue- Good news DS MiL is home again. She ,s having a tough time isn’t she.
Bet your Aunt was happy to see you. Ah she must have tiny little hands but at least they are warm now.
So glad you managed a walk together- must have been lovely to breathe the sea air again.
Oh you must have been nervous with your DH doing his balancing act. I,hate having to be the one holding things steady cos I know I couldn’t stop DH from falling if it,wobbled!!!
So a better day for you and sort of a nice tired- hope,you slept well.
Doodle- GD is not in pain thank you and doesn’t have to wear the boot all the time. My DD came over this morning for coffee and a natter and said that GD foot is black and blue but has no strapping at all.
Your neighbour has been so wonderful for you- so pleased you have her in your life.
Daffodils- a hopeful lovely sign Spring is coming. Hope you had a nice morning at Church and maybe coffee afterwards.
HVDY- another day of deprivation for your DH. But then he needed the calories for all that demolition work!
Little Girl must have had a lovely day wit( you all. Does Jaffa enjoy seeing her or is he nervous?
Your poor eyes- no wonder you feel like ripping them out. I remember my school friend had a lot of styes and they always looked very painful.
Candy- nice to,see you in. I hope your busy days have been full,of good things.
GD is managing OK thanks- just feeling cheesed off .
Will you be off to the caravan soon?
Elveral- Glad you feel a bit better and were able to enjoy a happy day with your family. Makes such a difference when you have the company of people you love and who love you.
Enjoy the rest of your weekend.
Wyllow- well done to cope with that phone call when you weren’t feeling so good. But now your house is YOUR home and perhaps you might feel like doing a few things to make it more personal to you. Of course it would be difficult at first but might help you feel more ‘at home’ with yourself.
I too have little mind pictures of everyone - I bet we’re not the only ones either.
Well shopping has come round quickly- hope you have a good day and spoil yourself a little .
Wishing all a calm ,peaceful night and may tomorrow be the start of a better week for everyone

HVDY I see your DH’s diet is going well.😊
Sorry about your poor eyes must be driving you mad. Are the drops helping at all? I’d go to bed early and rest them. Glad you are having such a fun time with little girl. She’s brought so much joy into your lives.
Nanny I’m pleased you are getting more time with your DGs now. Those cuddles and smiles are so special. I think you said your son was moving to Wales. It is a long journey and you will miss them. Could you go and stay with them for a while?
Candy have you been to your caravan recently? You sound as tired as I feel.
Elveral you sound a bit happier. Glad you’ve got family to help. Yes rest while you can and hope you feel better soon.
Wyllow now you’ve paint off your mortgage, do you feel like you want to stay where you are or do you want to move?
Well done for managing to sort things out with the bank. It’s quite exhausting trying to arrange things over the phone these days.
Scaredycat I. Glad your GD is not in pain but I’m amazed she’s coping ok. With a black and blue leg you’d think it would hurt more, good she’s getting around ok.
I’ve been to church for a Taize service tonight. First I’ve been too. We had five minutes silence. It was lovely to be in a quiet church just looking at the candles flickering and all %with our own thoughts.
Sweetpeasue I think you said you wanted your Dh to see the GP this week. Are you phoning in the morning? I wish you luck. Hope you’ve had a better weekend.
I’m so tired tonight. I didn’t feel well last night and was up for a few hours. I’m really sleepy now.

Good Evening ALL…..may I come back…unfortunately I’ve had a rough time and so I’m not up to date with all your news but I trust you are all managing the best you can under your circumstances. I just can’t seem to move on and my mind is permanently thinking of my DH, good memories and bad ones, could I have done more, did I look after him as I should have and the list goes on and on. I’ve been a couple of times to the hospice walk and talk which is helping, some very nice people and the hospice volunteers are brilliant. I’m fine when I’m with people but break into pieces when I get home. Anyway enough… I so enjoy reading all your news, it’s such a friendly supportive thread, wish we could all get together in person!!
I really wish you all well and will catch up properly with all your comings and goings. Please take care and fondest love to each and everyone of you. ❤️🙏💐