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Scaredycat Wed 08-Jul-26 15:53:35

Welcome. This thread is in support of those who wish to share their mental health problems as they affect their daily lives,share aspects of our lives supportively and give and take support. And is a continuation of Black Dog 29.
It’s been going for some time, so this is a jump in at the deep end.
All are welcome- don’t be put off by some of us being here long term - people come and go

HowVeryDareYou2 Wed 02-Sept-26 21:37:57

Doodle It is really autumnal now - summer is over, isn't it? It's lovely that you talk to your husband like that. It doesn't matter what anyone thinks - I talk to myself a lot.

Wyllow3 What an interesting time you had. Glad all went well. Does your brother live nearby?

SweetpeaSue Jaffa's a nice cat, and very affectionate (with cats, it's on their terms). My eyes have been very bad today. What might be causing your husband's ankles to be so swollen? Is he on Amlodipine BP pill at all? It's well-known for that. I hope he tries again to get an appointment with the GP.

I've been so idle today, yet still tired. Going to bed soon, although Jaffa's charging up and down the stairs [grin. Love to all x

Wyllow3 Wed 02-Sept-26 21:00:29

Oh, I do understand your concerns and frustration with DH not seeking enough help. Yes in an ideal world wait for the morning but heck, needful at the time - have a big hug, thinking of you both xx

Sweetpeasue Wed 02-Sept-26 20:27:23

HVDY Aw Jaffa is a lovely cat and friend- not sure Id appreciate those early mornings! Oooh the blepharitis sounds awful. I dont know much about it having not suffered but anything to do with eyes must be so horrible- I used to get hay-fever as a child but sort of grew out of it.
DH hasn't been assigned a consultant- just given dept appt.
Doodle Just went out for coffee today and DH wanted windscreen wipers. Called in son's on way home. Its good you can talk to your DH still. Earphones can be useful.Up in early hrs worrying about DH and telling him he must see GP about so many things. Needless to say he didn't appreciate me telling him that in the early hrs.
Scaredycat Hope uouve enjoyed having your family down. How is your DH these days. Sorry cant remember if hes had ECG yet.
Wyllow Weather her has been very wet indeed though mild. Hope you had a good day with your friend. What you had planned sounded great .
Nadateturbe Just saying hello and sending you love.
EllieAnne Hope you're OK and have managed to get some order back or planned for your kitchen.

Tired and running out of steam for getting DH help. Hes had swollen ankles for ages but one of them so painful has hardly been able to walk last couple of dys, limping badly . Needs a stuck for his hip pain which he didnt follow up after x,ray showed wear and tear changes in back( so he said Drs won't do anything about it. (Think he must have listened to so.e of my early hrs talk though as he rang to see if one of the 2 GPs he sees is on this week,theyre not) .
Sorry Im a bit down tonight.

Wish you all a peaceful night.love to all too.x

Wyllow3 Wed 02-Sept-26 20:23:54

I'm very, very, much in favour of either talking to yourself or another significant person in our lives. Go for it Doodle . a memory walk. 🙏.

It's worth, if your nose is troubling you too, nadateturbe or asking the doctor for the topical anti'b I use. I was using salt water and all and frankly it was too harsh. It can do no harm as far as I understand and unlike antics taken by mouth can be used on a continuing basis (Mupirocin or similar, but it can harm some peoples tender nasal passages so ..GP.)

I had a wonderful time indoors at the Museum - one wonderful art combined with archeology show on, and the lovely child and family friendly delving into the past, clothes to try on, lovely cafe. I had to visit a friend in need after, but content with this exceptional Museum and our natters as friend I went with is very knowledgeable as his father was an archeologist.

So a v early night as on a walk with brother tomorrow, when it should be dry. but he knows its 10.30 to 3 only.

xx to all BDs, not in today, reading.
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Doodle Wed 02-Sept-26 18:51:34

Scaredycat glad you had a lovely time with family. Nice of you to support your friend and keep her company.
HVDY it made me smile thinking of Jaffa giving you gentle pats with his law to wake you up. What a sweetie.
Wyllow that sounds like an interesting museum. Did you go?
I did go for a walk today. It was very autumnal. Overcast and a bit windy. I did a walk Dh and I used to do. I’m a bit melancholy these days but I talked to him as I went along which was nice. These days with mobile phone earpieces you can talk to yourself without looking odd. People assume you’re in the phone 🤣🤣
Sweetpeasue Have you been out again today? Did you manage to get your Dh to contact the GP? I wish he wasn’t so reluctant.
Have a good evening all

HowVeryDareYou2 Wed 02-Sept-26 15:34:12

Wyllow3 Thanks for the link. Very helpful. I've ordered the wipes and some moisturising stuff for my eyelids, too. Hope the rain didn't spoil your day out.

nadateturbe Thanks. I've got very sensitive skin, too, with Rosacea and an allergy to Lanolin. Hope you're getting on ok.

Lazy day today - a friend rang for 1/2 an hour and another one has been exchanging texts with me. The window cleaner was here this morning! It was raining, so I said I thought he might have cancelled today. His reply "Oh, it's ok, I'm not getting very wet" was quite odd (I'm not bothered whether he's wet or not, but what a waste of time cleaning windows in the rain! I paid him anyway. Couldn't be bothered to point out the obvious to him.

nadateturbe Wed 02-Sept-26 13:52:03

Just to say I use blephasol too. I have very sensitive skin and this doesn't irritate it. And salt spray for nose. Didn't know there might be a link1 Wyllow3.
Expensive to buy unfortunately.

Wyllow3 Wed 02-Sept-26 08:59:50

Blepharitis - oh it's horrible. Trouble is it has multiple causes. What helped me in the end - nothing short of a miracle for me - was that, post hospital and v mild MRSA, after weeks, I identified that my nose had an infection, did a bit go googling, and there was an apparent link eyes/nose. Topical anti-b's on my nose actually has cleared up the eyes pretty well, but I use products like this
www.youreyehealth.co.uk/products/blephasol-duo?mh_matchtype=&mh_keyword=&mh_adgroupid=&mh_network=x&gad_source=1&gad_campaignid=23200582477&gbraid=0AAAAAoyAUf-3OBcfmDz5VTUa8l3ZKbWKx&gclid=Cj0KCQjwkt_UBhDMARIsALpnOAz_rUV44PMGIXwIhYTWU8ATMAujHVH180xWhEWnrrr0DNuHDp-W_3UaApGUEALw_wcB

Which really had and have helped. Not available from GP.

I was going to go with friend for a walk in the park, but its gloomy and rain ahead, but there maybe a trip to the fab local museum which has both an art gallery and lots of fun and interesting things like local history or live as a caveman or woman for the kids (and some grown ups like me). I'm still tired, and a walk around and coffee just right.

Best days, BD's, however it finds you.

HowVeryDareYou2 Wed 02-Sept-26 08:21:51

SweetpeaSue The weather has been so changeable here, too. Your knitting is so good and neat. I'm sure the lady will be thrilled with the baby cardigans. What colour will they be? Rather than the GP (who won't be able to do anything), could you ring the Consultant's Secretary and try to get an earlier appointment? Perhaps go on a list to wait for a cancellation?

Doodle Wise to have a quiet afternoon if you felt dizzy. Hope you're ok now.

ScaredyCat It must have been lovely to have a catch-up with your family members. You're so kind to people, and your friend will be so glad of your company today. Look after yourself as well, though.

Wyllow3 Hope your finger is less sore today. Hope you have a pleasant day, whatever you're going to be doing.

Up at 5.30, with Jaffa patting me so gently on my shoulder. He's such a nice boy. Fed him, gave him his meds, went back to bed until 7.45. Not doing much today. Got Blepharitis, and my eyelids are so very sore. Hope everyone has a decent day x

Wyllow3 Tue 01-Sept-26 21:33:26

Oh so tired, as after yesterday's busyness and staying up far too late I was cream crackered.

A lovely kind day on here. The finger needs some caution and will make sure it's OK.

May it go well with your friend tomorrow, Scaredycat, and Sweetpeasue I understand so well the anxiety of having to produce as opposed to just picking something up and doing it because it takes your fancy at the time. It's true your work is lovely of course but...also yes, send DH to the doctor!

sorry cant mention all, back in tomorrow as ever xx

Scaredycat Tue 01-Sept-26 21:16:20

Hi all
It’s been really busy these last 2 days but so nice to see our family being together. I,m exhausted but it’s been lovely. They go tomorrow and then I,m going to be with my friend who is having her medication port removed tomorrow and mustn’t be alone for several hours. Thinking of you all and will be back tomorrow later. Night night.

Doodle Tue 01-Sept-26 19:40:17

Ellie Anne a big hug coming your way. It’s hard when things are going well to keep hanging on but as you said, we’ve no option but to keep going. Hope your floor dries out and can be relaid.
Ouch Wyllow hope your finger is ok. Sounds like you overdid it a bit today but did enjoy the scenery.
HVDY another fun day for LG with her grandparent. What happy memories she’ll have. Enjoy your quiet night with Jaffa
Sweetpeasue I’m with you I hate the hygienist. It’s like torture treatment. , You knit beautifully. I’m sure mum will be pleased with the twins cardis.
So sorry about your DH’s pain. I too would be pushing for another appointment with the Gp.
Scaredycat hope you’ve had a good day today, I went to sit fit this morning but it made me a bit dizzy so I’ve had a quiet afternoon.

Sweetpeasue Tue 01-Sept-26 18:53:27

Scaredycat Hope you're having a lovely time with all your extended family. Remember to rest too.
HVDY Such a beautiful photo of LG. Fancy her wanting to look like a goat! On the other hand, why not? She has such gorgeous eyes and hair! Ah , shes got some of dad's characteristics . It always amazes me how the different features and ways are handed down in the genes.
EllieAnne Oh Im sorry youve had such a mess to clean up. Fancy the umber having to go through your wall like that and all to no avail. You're probably right about it being the new dishwasher so I hope theres no more flooding now it's fixed. You didnt need all that on top of your other issues and I could understand you just wanting to shout ' no more'. I think many of us had times when we feel deserted and our faith leaves us and we feel so alone. I hope you feel spoken to in church on Sunday if you go. X
Wyllow Those were lovely kind words for EllieAnne and what an interesting and meaningful picture you painted with those encouraging words with it. I hope it did help you yourself when you painted it and were in a dark place.
You had a good long walk the other day. You did well to avoid the heavy downpours.
How is your finger today? The top of the finger can be very sensitive.
Doodle How are you ? Hope you are managing and coping with all the preparations for the holiday. Im sure once you're away and distracted by your lovely friend's sense of humour it will be better than the waiting- I hope so.

We drove out to the beach yesterday but it absolutely bucketed down so we turned back halfway there and by the time we got home the sun came out! Had heavy rain again last night.
Had hygienist appt at dentist this morning- hate it - all the scraping ect but not as bad as my imaginings beforehand.
Sis told her friend about my knitting baby cardis and shes asked her if Ill do some for her little twin girls. I should have declined but felt bad as sis gave me lots of wool from her MILs hoard . Theres not enough of the same shade so Ive bought some( her friend said shed pay me) but Ive been so nervous about it all. Its one thing knitting for charity but a huge difference when its for someone . She wants 4 cardis too so a lot of time.
I feel mean grumbling about it. ( I AM mean grumbling about it) . I hope she isnt disappointed whith them.

DH still extremely tired and pain in chest from wrongly positioned stent but appt not till December. 😞. Im trying to persuade him to go to Dr again .

Hope everyone is ok. Love to all.

HowVeryDareYou2 Tue 01-Sept-26 18:05:36

EllieAnne It sounds as though the leak was fixed pretty quickly, before any real damage was done. I think it'll dry up ok.

LG has been busy here today - sandpit, small paddling pool with wellies on, train set, various cartoons. She went half an hour ago. It's so quiet when she's gonegrin. We adore her, but she's soloud (like her dad). DH out with Son1 later, so it'll be a cosy evening with Jaffa for me x

Wyllow3 Tue 01-Sept-26 09:14:00

Pic for EllieAnne that I did to egg on myself.

Wyllow3 Tue 01-Sept-26 09:12:19

Dear EllieAnne I shall do what us Quakers do, that is "holding you in the Light". when I was very depressed the Light, faith, was not accessible to me, so I really understand. But faith is like a river - it is always there, but sometimes we cannot see its beauty, feel its waters xx
Yes, and in those times we have to just koko as you say, but the river has not gone.

I like order and things running well and it hits hard to have these practical problems to sort especially when under other pressures.

I think you are right, and it will dry out, the evidence all points that way.

I've a much needed easy going morning, then a laid back gym session later.

Best wishes to BD's for your days, whatever they bring.

EllieAnne Tue 01-Sept-26 08:52:27

Well the plumber came and no further forward. He took a bit of the wall out to get to the stopcock as he thought thar might be the source it wasn’t. Then lifted more of the wooden flooring to see the extent of the damage but couldn’t see any leaks. So it looks like whatever was leaking has stopped.
I will have to wait and see if it dries out. Then somehow get someone to lift the wooden flooring and replace it.
I was awake since 3 worrying about it, not good at living in a mess.
I have my suspicions that the leak did come from the new dishwasher and that the man fixed it and didn’t admit to it but maybe I’m just making up stories.
The atmosphere at home is bad and the faith which usually helps me has deserted me. But you keep going don’t you. It’s all you can do.

Wyllow3 Mon 31-Aug-26 22:30:20

OK, Sudocreme it is. it was just a shock. Lots of the red stuff but it's calmed down.

Now, none of this sheer ugliness....but of course you want to cover up the Rosacea.

HowVeryDareYou2 Mon 31-Aug-26 22:02:32

Doodle LG's favourite animals are goats, at least for now. She always makes a beeline for them when she goes to farms. You'll be glad to get back into your routine tomorrow, then. I haven't done much - changed beds, done washing, and vacuumed. LG tomorrow.

Wyllow3 I wear make-up out of necessity these days (Rosacea and sheer uglinessgrin). I do have to sort out my moustache every so often! The place you're going to sounds just right for you - chatty staff, with meals and a friendly atmosphere. What great views you had today. We're so lucky to have such beautiful places around. LG's mum loves Highland cattle (she's got pyjamas, cushions, bedding, etc., with them on - like me with cats). Your finger must be sore. Germolene or Sudocrem might help.

Jaffa's just waiting patiently for his last meal of the day, so I'll see to him and then go to bed. Hope everyone has a quiet night x

Wyllow3 Mon 31-Aug-26 21:48:05

I missed the post from nadateturbe yesterday - It’s just nice to see you in, nadateturbe, always remember that. ☺️

(Well, you did well to get out to get the new fridge freezer. Not the most exciting of days, but very necessary, I hope you managed to grab a coffee too)

Its nice to hear that you have got family over, Scaredycat …I hope the emotions are lovely ones xx

I don’t wear make up, HVDY but I take the equivalent ages on facial hair removal and attempted wrinkle reduction. 🤣.
No, this is a new place - but the area very familiar and much loved, and the pope I have spoken to on the phone nice and nattery and local. I had to ring today latish and got the night porter who was well up for said natter - so I known am in safe hands.

No, that definitely isnt a goat, but a lovely mermaid. I love the idea of her wanting to be a goat.

Dear Doodle.. I understand it’s hard to cope with the quiet days, too much room for the wrong sort of introspection. xx

Well I got all sorts in the weather today just in a 1.75 hour walk, Warm enough to wonder why I wore a light jumper, then pouting down with rain. One moment the fells clad in mist, the next, sunny patches.

I am getting very adept at helping families on this particular walk, who are not walkers nor equipped (bra tops), who just want to see the gorgeous Highland cattle who of course were moved in the extreme heat as no grass growth and probably somewhere cooler and explaining why. 2 lots today who had gone there and back.

Then we took the slow path back to the car which was very long and I overdid it but sort of proud I managed it. The meal was OK - not up to the prices - and I was actually happier afterwards just walking to the top of the short path behind the pub which gives views over 3 counties. Just amazing.

I think it will be a slow morning tomorrow…

I have also just, tired, sliced a bit nearly at the top of my finger. It’s the finger that gives access to my laptop (tho I can use the password instead.)

Thinking of absent BD’s and hope to see you in soon. xx

Doodle Mon 31-Aug-26 20:42:11

Sweetpeasue have you been out today. It’s been a mixture of sun and rain today and more windy. Hope it’s been ok for you

Doodle Mon 31-Aug-26 20:41:09

HVDY your DGD has an unusual choice for face painting. Does she like goats? She’s got a lovely little face. Bet she had a good time.
I’ve not done much today. Just a bit of painting. Trying to keep my self occupied. I don’t like the quiet days.
Sit fit tomorrow

Doodle Mon 31-Aug-26 20:38:58

Ellie Anne I’m so glad the evening went well. I don’t like fish but your meal sounds nice. I’m so pleased about the news of your son’s move. I remember quite a while ago how worried you were about the family. Nice to think they’ve got a nice place with a garden. Hope your floor can be repaired and the plumber finds the source of the leak.
Wyllow I think you’re very brave going away in your own but it sounds a lovely place. Hope you will find it restful and restoring.
Scaredycat how lovely to have family round. Hope you had a good day.

HowVeryDareYou2 Mon 31-Aug-26 08:22:38

She asked to look like a goat! The woman couldn't do that, so she's meant to be a mermaid.

HowVeryDareYou2 Mon 31-Aug-26 08:21:12

ScaredyCat Hope you have a really lovely time with your family. x