I am not sure how to put this, but, who in their right mind would ask to have their body operated on (with all the associated risks) and one that they could ill afford. Desperation and a feeling of failure to control your health , a constant battle going on in your head every day regarding food and your weight.
Last Saturday I went to an approved private hospital (not the cheapest but one that has a good reputation and proved success figures) and after a 2 hour chat booked a gastric band operation for a few weeks time. The price of it could have got me a new car, new windows or new kitchen, things that I really need, but would not have considered spending on because I could not afford such, but I am willing to go into debt for a chance to lose weight.
I have been fat for roughly 5 years, I have never got used to it or felt comfortable being such a size. For the past 2-3 years I have been 16st, losing weight to 15.7 or going up again to 16.7. This see-saw has been constant as every day I start a diet or healthy eating, obviously most days I fail. I have speights of positive thinking and carry on for a few weeks but cannot seem to get below 15.7, so there I plateau and then lose the will to live once again. I have tried every diet going, I have a library of books and perhaps enough knowledge now to be a dietician and tell other people how to lose weight. I have seen two dieticians myself who cannot help me, that is because I feel like I cannot help myself.
Gastric banding is not the answer (you can cheat it, I believe Vanessa Feltz did just that, but she must have more money than sense and not felt desperate or frightened enough) you have to work with the band and you can cause complications if you do not follow the rules. I am excited about the band but also terrified of what I am doing, but I feel there is nothing left to try now, this is what I have to do to improve my health and improve my opinion of myself.