I have a broad party allegiance and membership, but I have rested uneasily within it for several decades.
Each election I look at the policies of the other parties and think long and hard. I have twice come close to voting for another party, once Labour and once Conservative, but at the last moment something has stuck in my craw and I have backed off and voted for the same old same old. I am comfortable with the underlying philosophy of being neither committed to the state running everything nor believing that the market economy is inherently virtuous and efficient.
I do not take any notice of, nor read the polls and only have the vaguest of idea about what they are predicting at any point. Frankly I am beyond caring.