Today I have finally cleared out.....

...some of J's things from his wardrobe. It has taken 14 months for me to steel myself to do it. I was in the bedroom and for some strange reason I felt compelled to start taking his lovely suits out - well most of them - and now I want to put them all back in again. I feel as if I am letting him down packing them all into bin bags for the charity shop. Everything is a memory - the suit he wore to DD3's wedding 4 years ago, the suit he bought in Paris, the old trousers he wore at weekends, his dinner suit (and the new bow tie which I had bought for his last Christmas) the T-shirt DD2 gave him from Sydney, and so it goes on. I kept burying my head in them all trying to retrieve his smell, but it had gone. Am I doing the right thing? I don't know. I don't need the space but he isn't coming back to use them, so why keep them.........