After another rant from my daughter, in which she gets so upset and says awful things. I realised I cannot take it anymore. For many years I have been kept at arms length and gone long periods without contact, but always I worried most about the loss of contact from my granddaughter and put up with anything to see her, once after a period of 5 years apart, so I apologised when I had done nothing and didn't retaliate when shouted at. Everything is my fault and I genuinely think she will not be happy until I am out if her life for good. They have no contact with sil parents or family either. My D and Sil are lovely people with lots of friends and a very good lifestyle, but I have hung on in there until now.
For her health and well being at least, not alone the stress I constantly live under, contact has been severed. What I don't know is how to cope with that permanent void of a daughter and family I love so much. Sorry this is such a long post.
