This is the first time I have used Gransnet, and thought it the best place as a potential forum to discuss the way forward. Ok here goes - I have reached a crossroads in my life. Around 10 years ago, I experienced the joy of having our first grandchild, Subsequent years produced another 4 granddaughters, my husband and I were involved in child care over these years, the youngest of the 5 grandchildren all started school last week. So for around 9 years my life has been made up as follows, 2 days working in the NHS, 2 days looking after grandchildren and one day for myself where I could do as I pleased. My choice was always reaching out to friends for a lunch date. The truth is I now miss the 2 days of nurturing my grandchildren albeit we are still involved in pick up, drop off and swimming lessons. It’s the bit in the middle where I don’t know what to do with myself. My DH is off the same days as he has always been part of child care too. What’s wrong with me, I should be happy I have more time, but to me, I feel a huge void has been created and I miss my grandchildren so much. Emotionally, how do I get used to this big empty space I feel has been created. By nature, I’m a nurturer. I have 2 beautiful daughters who lead busy lives, and I find I’m always trying to arrange family get togethers as I miss their company to, but appreciatecat the same time they have their own lives. Feel dreadfully insecure.