Husband does not understand my upset.

Bluebelle I must admit with my first panic attack I did ask for husbands help, although with subsequent attacks I prefer to cope alone.
However those panicky feeling affect everyone differently.
The couple don't sound very close imo in spite of being together such a long time. Perhaps she didn't ask because she knew he wouldn't react emotionally to her needs.

I can understand why you feel upset that your OH didn't seem concerned that you'd done something out of character and at an odd time in bad weather.

Panic attacks are awful. I had no idea how bad they make you feel until I had one. I thought I was dying. The thing to understand that they won't harm you and you can pull out of them by controlling your breathing. Once you learn that the attack can be controlled, they become easier to cope with. When the cause of my anxiety stopped, so did the panic attacks.

I feel sure that once you learn how to control them just getting some fresh air in the garden will suffice and save the walk until later in the day. Not a good idea to go wandering off in stormy weather alone. Will PM you.

But it’s more odd after 47 years marriage that she didn’t turn to him for help and comfort annepl
If you were having overwhelming bad feelings or a first time panic attack you wouldn’t stop to get dressed and put your , coat and shoes on and creep out, would you ?

why didn't you leave him a note
She was having a (possibly first) panic attack and not thinking clearly.
Why would he assume she's just out for a walk?? ^the first logical thought^+ Really, in such bad weather?
I find it sad that someone thinks that she is lucky to be given a goodbye kiss. Surely hugs and kisses are still important after 47 years.
I think it very odd that he didn't even ring to check that his wife was ok. Especially as she has never done this before.
Does he look after you if you are ill Agnieszka?

Welcome to this forum agnieszka I don’t think you have anything to worry about but as you went out for your walk at 6am and your husband gets up for work at 6,15 why on earth didn’t you tell him I would have thought he was ready to be awake and getting prepared
It seems very strange to me that although you don’t share a bedroom you have so little contact that you wouldn’t tell him you were feeling unwell I would have expected you to go to his room and perhaps ask for his help or comfort
Perhaps he was upset with you for not telling him and ignoring him by not communicating with him and he followed your lead and stayed silent
As you only missed him by one minute perhaps he saw you coming back
Why would you stay out for three quarters of an hour in wind and rain when you have bad arthritis not good for your bones and you must have walked a long way
if you are having a panic attack there are many things you can do inside the home to help yourself or if you need air why not just stand in the garden and take some deep breaths then none of this would have happened
We’re you testing your husband ?

he insisted that he knew I must have just gone out for a walk and would return safely!!!!! How on earth could he have known this?

Because you've been married for 47 years of course.

My dear, you are over-thinking and worrying yourself for nothing.

6am is hardly the middle of the night and I'm assuming he used his common sense, he possibly even heard you leave the house and thought the first logical, sensible thing, she's going out for a walk Which is exactly what you did.

Why would he think anything else? Why would he assume, when you got up and went out at 6am that you were in danger? Do you live in a high risk area where people are often attacked in the mornings?

You are reading unnecessary drama into a perfectly normal situation and as you too have been married for 47 years, surely you know better than that?

Your panic attack is also normal; many of us have these incidents, as you describe. If it worries you, and especially if the następstwa leaves you blaming your dear husband for something he's not guilty of, then you might like to discuss it with your doctor.

By the way, I think you are very lucky indeed that he still comes to kiss you goodbye on his way to work.

Hi- Why didn't you leave the man a note!!!

Do you think his seemingly lack of concern is uncharacteristic of him?

Is it possible he is angry that you up and left without writing a note, so is angry with you, too?

Have you been having feelings recently and or thoughts regarding quality of your marriage?