AIBU to be so up and down?

Only just found this thread, you are indeed one amazing lady, lost in awe for your attitude. No thoughts I could possibly give, but just wanted to know I am willing you on. and warm hugs

Sending you a big virtual hug so sorry to hear this

Do you know, New Years Eve was wonderful. We (family of 6) ate, drank, played board games, laughed and cried our way into 2020.

Thoroughly enjoyable!

Just want to say Hi EllaKeat. Hope you are feeling ok at the moment. You posted you were dreading New Year. Sending love and hugs

Thank you so much grannymy and Marydoll, you will never really know how much your messages mean.
I could not find this thread, so started a new one, but I do appreciate your love and care, more than I can articulate.
For some reason it is warming.

God, how soppy ?

Found this thanks to Marydoll.

Ellakeat you have come through so much. So much bravery, although you might not think so at this moment in time. I stood next to someone in the pharmacy today whilst waiting for my prescription and the woman was openly talking to the assistant telling her about how her cancer had spread to so many parts of her body. She looked good! Where there is life there is hope and I can understand why it must just hit you at times. You actually sound such a strong character and this will help you through. I wish you all the very best xxx

Shoukd have made that 2 cakes and 3 glasses of wine.

Ella I am glad you are ok, and you are more than entitled to your 'moment'. You are brave and strong, keep on keeping on, but scream and shout if you need to, and you can always drop into GNet.

Think you mentioned you have a birthday coming up, hope you have a good one and enjoy it, whatever you do.

@silverlining48 thank you for asking, I am fine!
Every day I have a moment. A 'what's the point' moment, but it passes and I crack on.

As the title.of the thread says, I am up and down, but I don't think the time of year is helping either!
Let's get to a crappy, rainy February day and I bet the wobble goes?

I am just dreading New Year?

How are you today Ella.

a penis with a bobble hat


Come to think of it, so do DGD's!

I will hold that thought

@Callistemon ???

Yes! Will draw rude things on it too.

Sorry everyone, bit of a wobble.

Come on GN , get it deleted ?

If my grand daughter has been here, she would have drawn a snowman on it. Her snowman tends to resemble a penis with a bobble hat, so may have been appropriate?

Ellakeat, you are being very strong at such a difficult time, In November my husband was told that there could be no more chemo, he has bowel cancer which has spread to his lungs and liver it was a shock though not completely unexpected, he has been ill for two years. He is now under the care of our local Macmillan unit. It is a difficult time but we are trying to live as normally as possible and just take one day at a time.

I wish you well through your journey, stay strong and make those memories ?

I have just found your thread, Ella.
I can only send my love, thoughts and prayers.
You are truly remarkable ?? x

If you want my post deleted too, please ask GNHQ

Re your letter Ella, I would be tempted to get a marker pen and write Sod off the lot of you on it.

Ella, no words but sending love x

Thank you, I have reported.

Sorry, bit of a mess at moment ?

Hi there. Use the 'Report' button, beside the comment and GNHQ will delete if for you.
I'm so sorry that this letter came to you. ?

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EllaKeat, what a remarkable woman you are! .

I just wanted to check in and say thank you all for your wonderful posts?

Since I was last here I have been working to get my affairs in order, which feels bizarre because I dont feel ill?

On the bright side, I have also booked a five bedroomed lodge for a family holiday, so something to look forward to, and DH and I are jetting off in two weeks for some winter sun.

Its funny, but it is the small things that really get to you. My passport runs out next November. I will never need another one. Bloody ouch!

My biggest job is to get this house sold and Dh settled into a smaller place closer to friends. I know he would manage (just) if events overtake us, but it gives me a project to work on as much as anything else!

It is my birthday on 31st, I will be 59, my wonderful grandaughter who is 5 years old is making me a Mermaid Cake. Lets just hope it us edible?

I have had a lovely Christmas, hope everyone else has too, and all the best for 2020?

I have read your post twice today and it has made me feel both very sad and in awe of you.My mum died at 74 having had rheumatoid arthritis from being 30, she worked until she was 60 and I saw her in great pain every morning until her tablets made the pain more bearable,she never complained but just got on with it,in the last 3 years of her life she was in terrible pain in her hands, feet, spine and neck she had no life to speak of and told me that "I think I am ready for my box" she was very practical and brave ..She died eight months later after a fall which I know she engineered.I miss her every day as does my daughter who was 9 at the time .Your post reminded me of my mum ,she could have written it.You will always be remembered and loved.I hope you remain free from pain for a long time and remain upbeat I think you are amazing.

I think you sound the most amazing woman, and whatever happens I doubt your family will ever think otherwise.