Lancslass1
Thank your lucky stars that a) You have grandchildren at all .
Many people who would love them have none and b) that if you do have grandchildren who live in this Country you will be able to meet them hopefully In the not too far distant future.
Most grandparents I have noticed with children and grand children who live in foreign Countries don't seem to complain about their lot.
They accept the situation
Not helpful to try to make OP or anybody feel,guilty that they are voicing their personal sadness.
Yes we all know worse things happen at sea and we all realise we will have to manage somehow, but there are also times when you want to be able to let it all out and we, as grandparents or not seeing grandchildren or not, ought to be able to sympathise.
OP I haven’t read all the replies, but is there no way you could “bubble” with them?
Keep your chins up - better days will come ?