My dad died monday,he had a triple bypass and never woke up,he had a bleed following the bypass and for the last week my mum and i sat with him he wasn't awake,never came around monday they turned off the machines,the worst day of my life as i left the room i turned around and said bye dad and that is replaying over and over in my head,my dad has gone and i am struggling,i have a wonderful husband of 40 years and a son with his family etc,so i am blessed.My mum after 60 years of marriage is heartbroken,i have another big problem my sister who is last 50s lived with my parents never worked and for years she did not speak to my parents a story of hate really anyway she has suddenly wanted to take charge of everything i am the oldest just the 2 of us,i had'nt spoke to her in 40 years but when we know dad was at the end i went in to offer the olive branch i called up the stairs to her she told me to go away as i was walking down the stairs she flew out of her room pushed me the rest of the way down the stairs and started screaming at me,mum was outside heard all this,now she has rang the solicitor etc i have a wriiten message from dad saying i was to take charge and a text the day of his op telling me i was the dad now and what to do going forward,i really cannot cope with this i lost my dad but the hate i feel for her is stopping everything else and mum is in the middle of this,i was thinking of going over writing notes first only say what needs to be said with mum there and leave it because inside i am saying to myself i hate you i hate you goodness sake i am 60 her 3 years younger and we are acting like this,what about mum,she says everything will be equal,but really it all goes to mum so why fight about it then i know after mums days i will have this again,so we need to sort that out soon but lets put dad to rest first,i know she is jealous of me and i know i was closest to dad we were the most alike,so i just want to think about dad but i can't let her boss me about,i really have had enough.
