I reallly want to change my life but dont know were to start

Oh Jadey what a sad message. Yes I do believe that there is happiness out there for you and it will arrive when you least expect it. I lost two husbands before the age of 30. I was recently diagnosed with MS and I thought my life was quite literally over. By pure twist of fate I met a man who I knew I would spend the rest of my life with and I truly believe that "something" brought us together although I am not religious at all.

Please don't think that happiness is just for other people. It is for everyone and we all get a taste of it sometimes. I admit to feeling like you sometimes but try to think of all of the good things I do have in my life.

I know what you mean Jadey. My life was changed last yesr by fate not design and I am certainly searching for 'something else'

I found it by leaving my husband, but I was practical - I waited until I was earning enough to support my daughters on my own.
I think you will have to work out what kind of happiness you want, so that you can work towards it. Do you want to change your location, your work, your friends, your relationships?
Making new friends in often a good start to a new life, and that could mean joining some groups or getting involved in some voluntary work.