As the first woman it sounds ike you are being expected to shake things up without any support & you need allies when challefing aware & unaware dinosaurs. I suspect they think that by admitting women they think they have become equal without doing more. I note you think you want to ne accepted by them so perhaps make a start by changing that & acting as if (even if you don't yet fee it) you are an equal & don't need to be accepted anymore than they need to be accepted by you. There clearly needs to be a change in the institutional policies & practices & you need evolution or, with a few brave women, revoution.
Baby Reindeer - anyone watched it?
Last weekend, in Rutland, the first statue in Britain of the late Elizabeth II was unveiled.