Morbid Thoughts

I'm the same. Hope you can feel better.

I think about it from time to time Sebstar but if its constantly in your thoughts maybe you need some help. Talk to your GP you may be depressed or unduly anxious.
I find it helpful to set aside a short period of time to concentrate on my worries ( not near bedtime) then I put my concerns aside until the next time. Get some help/counselling so you can enjoy your life.

Hello Sebstar. I think you need to visit your GP and talk this over with him/her. You seem to be suffering from mild depression in my opinion.
I'm 68 and have none of those thoughts.
I do wonder if there is an afterlife, from time to time, but not about death or dying.
I hope you get help soon, and these thoughts are banished.

Sometimes I get upset to think I’ll only have a limited amount of time with our grandchildren especially as baby is only just 2y. It’s saddens me.
But then I think ‘what if someone were to guarantee you another 50ys would you take it?’ and my answer would be ‘no’.

No pleasing some people is there?

I feel like you Sebstar and I am “only” 57 !

It’s not that I don’t know we are all going to die at some point, I just worry how my family would manage without me . I do a lot of childcare, school runs, looking after my elderly father and other family members and seriously worry how they would manage if I died . My 2nd husband died very young so why not me ? I’m not special. Like you I don’t seem to be able to enjoy my life for this permanent cloud hanging over me .