Looks like you've hit one of those rough patches that life sometimes throws at us, Daisyrose. Reassure yourself that you will come through it, as "this too will pass". It may not seem like it just now, but you will smile again. Would it help to talk to close family or a close friend about how you're feeling? Sending you my best wishes for a speedy return of happier times.
Giving my pots a bit of a boost after the winter
Desperately sad story of the assisted suicide of a grieving mother

