pre bereavement

oh I do feel for you and your family, have been through this situation myself, my mother ( who had COPD, some dementia plus other ailments) decided it was her time to go , she refused to eat and drink, did not cooperate with her medications, and just wasted away over a matter of weeks, she was in hospital , then care home, and because she was deemed capable, there was nothing that the medical profession could do. It was a sad and horrible to thing to watch a person slip away like this

Because I'm only 3 years younger than the OP's mother there's no way that I would wish or even imagine going just yet, even with having a few medical problems to contend with.

If you'd seen the size of my dinner that I ate and enjoyed you'd understand why I wish to stay as long as I'm able.

Things could/would be very different if I was suffering in any way and wasn't able to eat or manage my life as I do. I remember telling my GP years ago that I'd take a pill as that would be my wish.

My D's late MiL just wanted to fade away so didn't eat or drink and she was someone who'd loved life and travelled extensively but was never the same after she lost her husband. Both had lived in Australia and both came home to die. So vey sad watching her reduce in size and no longer enjoying being alive. I remember it affecting me at the time.
With that in mind I can only send my heartfelt wishes to you and for you to remain strong when the time comes.

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

I haven’t experienced this directly, but apparently my great grandmother said one day, she’d had enough, took to her bed. and that was that.

Probably a lot more going on there than I was ever told, but sadly sometimes people just have had enough

Me and my 2 sisters have done all this. Visited with the grandchildren - great grandchildren. She has enjoyed these visits then quite cuttingly dismisses us.
Her GP knows her wishes and as I said we waited for over a week to get her a mental health assessment before being told she has full mental capacity and was discharged home.

Thank you for all your lovely input; yes my mum has had low level depression I guess most of her life. I remember when I was very young her being admitted to a 'clinic' for a while.
She's not been on any meds and whilst in hospital was assessed by the psychiatric team as having mental capacity so legally could so what she wants. She was also described as nihilistic (yes I had to look it up).
Whereas I believe she should be able to 'slip away' and join my father, in relaity it hasn't worked out like this. She left hospital weighing 4 stone 12 lbs - and that was 4 weeks ago. I honestly don't know how she's kept going. This is not the death she had anticipated.
On the one hand I wish her a sppedy release and on the other I am angry with her, and this is the isssue that i am really struggling with.
I constantly study other older ladies that I see out and about and wonder how they can find joy and purpose that my mother can't find.

You need to have her health assessed objectively.
In the end it isn't your decision but looking at treatment for depression is vital.
In this day and age 82 really isn't a big deal!

OTOH I could foresee a time (not at 82!) when I could accept that, job done and family settled,
I'd prefer to shuffle off my mortal coil if I'd lost interest.
I 'd rather 'see' them benefit from their (limited) inheritance than waste it on paying for care for me when I no longer care to be kept going!

Jools I have experience of what you are going through. My mother wanted to die in her own home after having a short spell in hospital. She was going downhill health wise but she wanted to speed things on. I decided to let her do what she wanted. I was criticised, but my mother’s happiness was my prime concern. She want to go and be with dad and who was I to stop her.

She fell into a coma and just ebbed away.

Do what you and your Mum want.

Sending you hugs.

I agree with Gonegirl, I think this situation needs to be assessed by a professional before accepting what the OP's mother says she wants.

Goodness , she is only 82 with no real health problems
There must be some other underlying reason. Maybe depression ? I would be encouraging her to speak to a doctor or at least questioning her myself as to why she feels this way.

Was your mum hospitalised as a result of the nausea? Was anything diagnosed? Is she on any medication as a result? Has she suffered from depression earlier in her life? The doctor presumably know of her intention? Sorry, that was a lot of questions! I do feel for you.

Doesn't bother me what you feel Calendargirl.

At 82 the poor lady shouldn't be feeling like that.

Sorry Gonegirl, but I agree with other posters. She is ready to die and should be allowed to go in peace.

For God's sake, take her out, visit with the grandchildren, buy her flowers, do her garden up with loads of flowers. Tell her how much you, and the children, love her.

Please.

For an 82 year old, that is horrible! That lady needs the care of a doctor to treat her depression. Sorry, but I don't think you can just accept that. You must help her fight it.

Yes I do. I didn't find it as difficult to accept as you do. I was sad, but was able to celebrate a life well lived and a wonderful legacy. Are you able to think about your mum's life and death in that way?
Some lovely advice above.
We are not, as a family, religious, but a strong part of our culture (we are from a rural area) was the rhythms of life, and we all found the Psalm 'To Everything There is A Season' suited us very well - whether read from the Bible, sung simply by Pete Seeger or the Byrds' version.
I write this simply to offer something you may find useful - we are all different.
I hope that you and mother can find something to share so that the last of your time together on this earth celebrates your relationship.

It’s like when you were a child you never wanted to go to bed, nor could you imagine ever really wanting to go to bed. Then, when you grow up, you can’t imagine anybody wanting to die, but there comes a time when we’re more than ready.

your mum is tired Jools, she wants to be with her soulmate, to quietly slip away, to not be afflicted with one of those awful illness that can come with very old age. She has seen you all grown up and be happy and settled, she feels that her work is done. It is her time now, let her be. Wanting her to stay is your choice, for you, not for her

I've no personal experience of this, although my own mother wanted her life to end for many years before her actual death. However, a neighbour did precisely what the OP describes. She always wanted to reach her 100th birthday and receive the card from the Queen, and as soon as this had been achieved, she turned her face to the wall and refused to eat or drink, dying a few days later.

My mum is 101 and has heart failure. Really she has been so good up to about 3 weeks ago and is now more or less bed ridden. She eats very little , and thinks that she has lived for too long now, although she isn’t actively pursuing her death, but she wishes herself gone.

Yes it is upsetting and miserable watching their struggle, but in your mums case she has taken control, which if you think about it is just as it should be. Nothing to feel guilty about. But you are feeling grief just as I am and it is perfectly natural.

Death is one if the most profound things we will ever have to face in our loved ones but it is part of life and absolutely inevitable. Just love her as you always have done.

I’m doing what I can, like picking garden flowers, taking her favourite magazine, trying to think of stuff she likes, although their world gets smaller and smaller doesn’t it?

Do keep in contact if you feel that is appropriate. You will get good support on here if you need it.

I have no direct experience but feel from what you have said that your Mum has decided that her life is now complete and she wants it to end.

I know that this must be amazingly hard for you and your family but I don't think her decision in any way reflects on her love for you all. She has just decided that she has had enough and wants to bring things to an end. I think that all you can do is be there for her and offer her comfort during this very difficult time. Maybe knowing that she made her own choice will eventually bring you peace of mind. I hope so.