Oh, I can understand that so well Totallylost and to tell the truth, I don't think you ever get over it. You learn to manage it; sometimes better, sometimes not well at all.
My husband died in tragic circumstances in 1998 and it was only this week, when someone on GN reminded me of a song he used to sing to our baby, that I found myself in tears all over again.
But in a strange way, I was glad. I loved him and I still mourn him because of that love.
I don't expect anyone to understand, though some may say they do, because that love we had was personal, between us alone and no one else's love was like ours...because it was ours.
I do NOT mean other couples loved less, I know that's not true.
But the love WE shared, was specific to us, just as yours is specific to you and your darling. Nothing compares.
No one can ever see into the hearts and minds which bound you together. Those ribbons of care and concern, were what kept you together, happy, fulfilled and contented. Despite the flaws.
Even people who are deeply in love cannot understand what it was that made you and your husband one heart.
It's like a daffodil trying to imagine what it is like for a rose.
Both beautiful, both so different.
No one, however sympathetic can comprehend what we were given, what wonders and blessings we achieved with that dear companion. And what we lost.
All we can do is find it in us to forgive, simply because they don't know.
Day by day Totallylost day by day.