I'm new here and have not posted due to a lot going on in my life. And sometimes I feel like if I unloaded all my struggles people would grow very tired of me.
However this weekend seemed to be my tipping point.
I will keep my story brief.
I know this is a Bereavement pertaining to loosing loved ones to death but my story is not quite at that point yet.
This is a bit long I apologize.
We have a local market (it's called a pop up market) that we go to every Sunday Morning (my husband, myself, my daughter, her husband and my 2 six year old twin grandsons.
We have been going to this market for close to 5 years now. And we have a set routine with some of the vendors. We meet at the coffee vendor and get our coffee, right next door is a pasta maker, we visit him and chat for awhile and he has become a good personal friend. We then go have breakfast and then we walk around our usual route to visit other vendors. In the corner is one of our favorite vendors, he runs a lovely figurine shop, and a little ways down the hall his wife runs a ladies clothing booth. They also have their son there most days. This family is wonderful. They often have little treats for my grandsons, they always sell to us at a discount and we really enjoy our visit.
From here a few booths down the hall is a collectibles booth and over the years we have got to know the owner very well. She always has special gifts for the twins, always is giving away things to us that we show interest in and is the most beautiful hearted person I have ever met. We spend many hours visiting her, we share family matters, politics and just about anything we want. The twins run into her shop every Sunday to visit her because they truly love her. And she truly loves them.
For the past 4 weeks she has not been open. This Sunday past we found out she has been in the hospital for the last 4 weeks, we know it has been something to do with throat surgery she had a few months ago. We also found out from the lady who was filling in for her Sunday at her both that our lovely friend will not be returning to the market. The pain we all have is... we never exchanged phone numbers after 5 years, our lovely lady is so unwell and weak she will not accept visitors, she is not texting, or taking phone calls. We are gutted. Absolutely at a complete loss with this loss. We don't even know her last name. She just grew to be our amazing market friend.
In her time at the hospital she managed to convey to the lady who was looking after booth to make sure the "family with the twins" gets 3 absolutely gorgeous and amazing model sailing ships. 1 for my husband and 1 each for the twins. This brought us all to tears. And still makes me cry thinking about this. This shows the true beauty of this wonderful lady.
We don't even know how to say thank you. We had brought a get well card and asked the lady in the booth to ensure the card gets to our friend. And on it I wrote my phone number. I am not terribly optimistic but am trying to be as my husband is. My daughter and I have cried so many tears since yesterday.
I am stuck with the visual memory of one of my grandsons yesterday running down the hall to see our friend and only to be taken aback with confusion and disappointment when he saw a stranger in his favorite ladies booth.
I know there are not solutions, we will just keep asking around next week at the market if there is new news. We will keep asking for someone to get our phone number to her.
This is just such a blow to my family, and I guess the hardest thing is we may never get closure. We don't even know if she will come out of the hospital, do not know if there is family spending time with her (she is older, divorced, we can't recall if she has kids, but do know there were 2 brothers but believe they have passed)
I really just had to vent. There are no questions from me on what to do.
I remain hopeful that someway somehow our paths cross again and we can hug this glorious human and thank her and even say our good byes.
Thanks for letting me vent.
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(20 Posts)What a sad story and poignant story. Why not contact the markets manager at the local council because stall holders will have signed an agreement. They may be limited in the info they can give but it would be my starting point. Also the local press may help too- I am sure you won't be alone in feeling a loss about this. I would also look on Facebook at the local pages as they can be a hive of information.
Other than that all I can say is life is change. We sometimes take for granted these little pleasures that are taken away, but only to be replaced by something else.
I wish you luck in your search and let us know how you get on.
Oh how dreadfully sad ... I am sorry. If she doesn't get in touch, maybe someone might see your card and number and give you ring?
I'm sure that someone in the market will know her name, ask around them all and potentially keep an eye out in the local paper for obituaries, as sadly there may be a funeral notice as unfortunately she may have had throat cancer?
I hope that you can find something out ... bless you.
What a beautiful friendship - reminds me of the saying ‘a stranger is a friend you do not know’. How sad for you and your grandsons - don’t give up. I hope someone will provide the information you so desperately need. Good luck. I hope your market friend gets better and returns.
Reading the beginning of this I thought, what a lovely way to spend a family Sunday. So very sad to hear that your friend is in hospital. I sincerely hope that you don’t give up on trying to make contact with her, and I really wish that she recovers from her illness. 🙏💐
You have done your best by sending a card. The ball is now in her court. You are very sad - but she has the most to deal with. In time she may respond but right now she has bigger fish to fry.
wilderness you have given your friend the most important gift - she will know you hold her in your hearts.
Not knowing is very, very hard. Sadly something you’ll have to absorb. I’m sure market people will hear something at some point and will share what they can with you. Keep sending cards if it’s possible, keep them light perhaps include a few words of news of your grandsons but best not to expect a response, she’ll know you care, that’s enough.
We will keep asking for updates or contact information every Sunday we go.
And cancer and her passing is truly my fear. Fortunately I follow the market FM page and if she did pass we would know from that. And closure would be find for us all.
to update:
We found out more information yesterday. Our beautiful friend has been moved into Palliative care.
I have had such mixed emotions on this.
First was the horror and sadness of this being the end of her life.
Second was the relief that we know what is a head.
It ended up that our beautiful friend has been sick for quite a while and was holding on to all she had with great care. We found out her illness is not new. She has been battling gallbladder cancer, and it progressed to her stomach, this has now become terminal.
I now realize that the greatest joy was not what she gave us, but what we gave her. She loved us very much, but she loved our twin grandsons the most. She gave those boys toys, and goodies for every occasion, birthdays, Christmas, Valentines Day, Halloween, and Easter. She never missed a date. This is what made her smile. This is what made her struggles a little easier.
We also found out that this amazing lady is taking only half of her pain medication so she can be cognizant of her time with her family. (her sons, grand daughter and sister I believe) who have all been by her side all this time.)
We now understand her privacy and pride. She put on a very brave face for us all.
We won't see her again. But we know she is in good care, and know that she will slip away quietly with all her family around her. And my family can move on knowing we brought smiles to her face every time we visited her little shop.
I have some lovely collectables in my house that I bought from her and I will treasure them until my last days.
All I can tell you is we were truly blessed to have known Stephanie for these past 5 or so years.
A truly unusual but wonderful friendship. Stephanie may not have the energy to contact you but rest assured she has not forgotten you and your family. The memories you have of her will sustain you in the future and are indeed very precious.
I wish you well. 💐
This may be my final update on my dear friend Stephanie.
We visited her friend Sunday and have been told she has opted for the Medically Assisted End of Life procedure.
This was sad, but also has offered us closure.
I wrote a letter to Stephanie and her family on behalf of my family. And feel good in my heart now that we at least know there will be relief for her forever. Bless her beautiful heart she will be somebodies special angel down the road.
Our beautiful friend Stephanie is now pain free. She passed away yesterday with the help of the Assisted End of Life program. God bless the person who gets her as their angel.
Rest In Peace Dearheart.
I’ve just seen and read through this entire warm but very sad story. It truly was quite heartbreaking but I’m glad that you now have closure and Stephanie is now at peace.
Take care 💐
Wilderness - so sorry for you, the twins, and ofcourse, Stephanie’s family . Take care 
thank you to all
‘Assisted end of life programme’ ?
What is this?
Wilderness, thank you so much for sharing with us. You, your family, and Stephanie brought so much joy to each other. Thank you for the update. Peace to you now and God bless.
Like others, I was very moved to read this poignant account. What an inspirational person Stephanie was! The memories that you (and others, no doubt) have of her kindness will last long after her time on this earth. Thank you for sharing such an uplifting story.
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‘Assisted end of life programme’ ?
What is this?
In Canada, we have a program called MAID. It is medically assisted suicide. One can apply for it if one wishes to terminate their life. Often times this is applied for when one is terminally ill.
Ok, something we are trying to get in the U.K.
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